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INTRODUCTION: BY WILL
CARLETON.
All over this country, and, one might say, the
world, Fanny Crosby's hymns are singing themselves
into the hearts and souls of the people. They have
been doing this for many years, and will do so as
long as our civilization lasts. There are to-day
used in religious meetings, more of her inspired
lines, than of any other poet, living or dead. Not
only those hymns with which she is credited in the
singing-books, but thousands of others, have come
from her heart and mind; for she has written, not
only under her own name, but several nom-de-
plumes. Her sacred lyrics have been translated
into several languages. She is easily the greatest
living writer of hymns, and will always occupy a
high place among authors.
But what of Fanny Crosby the woman? Is her
personality as sweet and inspiring as her poems?
Has her life been an exemplification and illustration
of them?
From those of us that know her well, such ques-
tions would elicit a smile. Whoever has had oppor-
tunity of witnessing her patience, her sweetness
of thought and life, her bright winsomeness and her
all-around and all-through goodness, would not even
take the trouble to answer in the affirmative; he
would say, "There she is; there is her life; let them
speak for themselves."
But compared to the thousands that have sung
her _ inspiring hymns and partaken of her gentle
spirit, few, of course, can have the opportunity of
knowing her personally; and it is natural that all
should wish to learn as much about her as possible.
Introdtcction.
In this book is an account of her life, told by her-
self, and as she only could tell it. There are several
of her newest hymns; a few of the many tributes that
she has received; and the latest portrait of her,
taken expressly for this book. Every copy of the
work that is sold, adds substantially and immediately
to the comfort of this grand woman, who has been
singing in such far-reaching tones, the praise of her
God and her Christ, for sixty years.
The response will, no doubt, be such as to con-
vince our dear Fanny Crosby that she occupies a
warm place in the hearts of the people, and that
she is sure of their love, their honor, and their
practical appreciation.
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CONTENTS.
CHAPTER 1.-1820-1825.
INFANCY BLINDED AT SIX WEEKS OF AGE AM
THANKFUL FOR IT NOW PARENTS AND RELA-
TIVES LONELY AMUSEMENTS ASKING GOD
FOR A CHANCE IN THE WORLD HIS ANSWER
THE BELLIGERENT LAMB DANIEL DREW'S
ATTEMPTED PRESENT OP " STOCK." . . 13
CHAPTER II.— 1825.
A SLOOP JOURNEY DOWN THE HUDSON ACTING
AS captain's FIRST MATE A PATRIOTIC SONG
DRS. MOTT AND DELAFIELD GIVE ADVERSE DE-
CISION BLIND FOR LIFE THE SAD JOURNEY
HOME WHAT THE WAVES SAID. . . . 20
CHAPTER III.— 1830.
BIBLE-INSTRUCTION MY FIRST POEM MY FIRST
LITERARY ADMIRER HIS INABILITY TO CON-
CEAL HIS SENTIMENTS A TERRIBLE THIRST
FOR KNOWLEDGE A PLEA FOR MENTAL LIGHT
god's goodness in ANSWERING PRAYER. . 26
CHAPTER IV.— 183s.
A THRILLING ANNOUNCEMENT AN EDUCATION AT
last! ON THE "TIPTOE OF EXPECTATION''
STARTING FOR SCHOOL ARRIVAL AT THE INSTI-
TUTION FOR THE BLIND A HELPER OP OP-
PRESSED GREEKS AN ACQUAINTANCE OF LORD
BYRON— SCHOOL-LIFE STARTS OFF WELL. . 30
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Contents.
PAGE.
CHAPTER v.— 1835-1836.
SCHOOL-LIFE THE MONSTER ARITHMETIC AND ITS
TERRORS METAL SLATES IN LOVE WITH
OTHER STUDIES "DROP INTO POETRY" NOW
AND THEN TEMPTATIONS TO VANITY A BENE-
FICIAL "call-down" prom THE SUPERINTEND-
ENT ALL FOR MY OWN GOOD. . . .33
CHAPTER VI.— 1835-1858.
INCITEMENTS TO AMBITION GREAT PEOPLE WHO
WERE BLIND THE IMMORTAL HOMER THE
KING-POET OSSIAN JOHN MILTON AND HIS
GENIUS FRANCIS HUBER, THE NATURALIST
OTHERS WHOSE CAREERS GAVE US ENCOUR-
AGEMENT. .... • • 39
CHAPTER VII.— 1835-1858.
VACATIONS PUPILS WHO ENJOY AND PUPILS WHO
DO NOT ENJOY THEM AWAITED EACH TIME BY
MOTHER AND SISTERS CANDY AND FLOWERS
SAVED UP EXCURSIONS SWEET INQUISITIVE-
NESS AN ENTHUSIASTIC AUDIENCE SISTERS
STILL SPARED. . ... 42
CHAPTER VIII.— 1836-1837.
BLIND STUDENTS, ALSO, HAVE " SPOflTIVE " MOODS
SOCIALS, MUSICALES, AND SOIREES HAZING
TENDER ATTACHMENTS " INNOCENT" THEFTS
A WATERMELON ADVENTURE PEAR MR.
STEVENS' FIFTEEN-MINUTE NAP A GOOD LAUGH
OVER THE AFFAIR. ... -45
CHAPTER IX.— 1836-1842.
"strenuous work" HOW A BLIND PERSON CAN
TOIL, INTELLECTUALLY BECOME ONE OP THE
TEACHERS — -THE "WITCHING SPRITE" OP
POETRY— FORBIDDEN TO COMPOSE ANY POETRY
FOR THREE MONTHS PHRENOLOGY TO THE
RESCUE ! ... 49
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Contents.
FAGK.
CHAPTER X.— 1842-1843.
DR. combe's endorsement IS OP BENEFIT THE
"poet laureate" of the INSTITUTION
tauoht how to write poetry — hamilton
Murray's aid — a reunion after sixty-five
years' absence. ... -33
CHAPTER XL— 1842-1845.
musical diversions for the blind — neigh-
borly calls SOIREES WILLIAM CULLEN BRY-
ANT VISITS US HIS KINDNESS TO THE GIRL-
POET TWO VISITS WITH HORACE GREELEY
SHOWING PEOPLE ABOUT THE INSTITUTION
HOW THE BLIND "FIND THE WAY TO THEIR
MOUTHS." .... . . 56
CHAPTER XII.— 1843.
A TRIP ON THE "RAGING CANAWL " ITS WONDERS
AND ITS DELIGHTS THROUGH THE MOHAWK
VALLEY AND AWAY TOWARD THE LAKES AN
EXPECTED FUNERAL PROCESSION TURNS INTO
A "CIRCIS" ENTERTAINMENTS ALL ALONG THE
WAY MAYORS OF TOWNS PRESIDE BLIND AND
SEEING PEOPLE COME PROM ALL DIRECTIONS
BUFFALO AND NIAGARA FALLS ARE REACHED. . 60
CHAPTER XIIL— 1843.
NIAGARA FALLS VISITED WHAT THE BLIND STU-
DENTS "saw" OP IT TABLE ROCK STANDING
UPON GOAT ISLAND THE POOR OLD ANIMAL
FOR WHICH IT WAS NAMED STORIES OF THE
"oldest inhabitants" TELLING ABOUT IT
TO THOSE WHO "couldn't GO." . . 65
CHAPTER XIV.— 1 844-1 847.
OFF TO THE NATIONAL CAPITAL AND CAPITOL
BEFORE THE SENATE AND HOUSE OP REPRE-
SENTATIVES MEET AND HEAR JOHN QUINCY
ADAMS — -JAMES BUCHANAN ANDREW JOHNSON
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Contents.
FAOB.
STEPHEN A. DOUGLAS WILLIAM L. DAYTON
JOHN P. HALE RUFUS CHOATE R. H. BAYARD
ROBERT J. WALKER OTHER PAMOUS MEN IN
THE AUDIENCE. . . . . 69
CHAPTER XV.— 1844-1897-
COLLECT POEMS AND PUBLISH A BOOK "THE
BLIND GIRL AND OTHER POEMS " MY "DE-
CLINING health" DELIVERING A POEM BE-
FORE THE NEW JERSEY LEGISLATURE ANOTHER
VOLUME, "MONTEREY AND OTHER POEMS " MY
"declining years" FIFTY-TWO YEARS AGO
STILL ANOTHER BOOK, "a WREATH OP COLUM-
BIA'S flowers" PROSE STORIES " BELLS OF
EVENING." ...... 75
CHAPTER XVI.— 1844-1902.
A NEW CHARGE A PROMISING STUDENT HIS
CAREER IN SCHOOL MARRIAGE SYMPATHY IN
PROFESSIONAL WORK CHARACTERISTICS OF
MY HUSBAND HIS MANY GOOD QUALITIES
HIS DEATH. . . .80
CHAPTER XVII.— 1845.
THE BLIND NOT SO EASILY DECEIVED WAYS TO
ASCERTAIN WHAT IS "GOING ON " LOVE-
MAKING BEFORE THE BLIND NOT ALWAYS SAFE
WIRELESS TELEGRAPHY OF THE MIND, HEART,
AND SOUL THE BLIND CHILD FROM NEW JERSEY
GRIEVES FOR HIS GRANDMOTHER ACTING
THE PART OF THE GOOD OLD LADY THE LITTLE
BOY HAPPY. 83
CHAPTER XVIII.— 1846-1849.
A TERRIBLE CLOUD IN THE EAST THE DREAD
SPECTRE OF CHOLERA IN THE DISTANCE IT
STARTS FROM INDIA MAKES ITS WAY WEST-
WARD REACHES NEW YORK AND OTHER
AMERICAN CITIES VACATION SPENT AMONG THE
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PATIENTS "god WILL TAKE CARE OF US,
EITHER IN THIS WORLD OR THE NEXT" MAKING
MEDICINE HAVE THE PREMONITORY SYMP-
TOMS OP THE DISEASE STUMBLING OVER COF-
FINS IN THE HALLS END OF THE HORRORS. . 87
CHAPTER XIX.— 1847.
ASKED TO WRITE POEMS ON ALL SORTS OF SUBJECTS
A DIRGE FOR DANIEL WEBSTER BEFORE HE
WAS DEAD DEATH OF HENRY CLAy's SON
POEM UPON THE SAME THE GREAT STATESMAN
VISITS OUR INSTITUTION HIS PATHETIC AC-
TIONS AND WORDS. . .... 94
CHAPTER XX.— 1848.
GENERAL SCOTT VISITS US "a PORTION OF THE
country's history" HIS POLITENESS AND
CHIVALRY "war IS HBLL" IN A MANNER ANTE-
DATED CAPTURING GENERAL SCOTT WITH HIS
OWN SWORD "waiting FOR THE NEXT PRESI-
DENT" JAMES K. POLK VISITS US HIS AN-
CESTRY DESERTING HIM TO GREET A SERVANT
HIS KINDNESS AND CONSIDERATION. . . 99
CHAPTER XXL— 1848-1850.
napoleon's FAITHFUL MARSHAL, BERTRAND A
POEM OF WELCOME HOW HE WATCHED BONA-
PARTE's life ebb AWAY LAURA BRIDGMAN,
AND HER SWEETNESS OF MAGNETISM JENNY
LIND COMBS AND SINGS TO THE BLIND STUDENTS
HER GENEROSITY — THE GREAT AND ONLY
BARNUM ALICE GARY — A POEM FROM FRANCES
RIDLEY HAVERGAL. . . . 10$
CHAPTER XXII.— 1850-1868.
SECULAR SONGS CANTATAS MEET MR. BRAD-
BURY ENGAGE TO WRITE HYMNS LIFE-WORK
DISCOVERED A DREAM-VISION DEATH AND
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PAGK.
FUNERAL OF MR. BRADBURY THE MYSTERIOUS
VOICE NOM-DE-PLUMES. . II3
CHAPTER XXIII.— 1853-1893.
GROVER CLEVELAND AS A YOUNG MAN HIS GRIEF
AT HIS father's DEATH HIS INDUSTRY AND
DEVOTION TO HIS STUDIES DISPOSITION TO
HELP OTHERS COPIES POEMS FOR ME UP-
BRAIDED BY SUPERINTENDENT GROVEr'S AD-
VICE SOME PLAIN PROSE NO MORE TROUBLE
PLEASANT ACQUAINTANCE WITH HIM AFTER
HE HAD SERVED AS PRESIDENT. . .119
CHAPTER XXIV.— 1 893-1 9 03.
THE MAKING OF A HYMN THE " HYMN-WORK-
SHOP " "moods" in WRITING " BUILDING "
A MOOD BEGINNING WITH PRAYER MEASURE
AND TUNE WRITING TO AN AIR THE BOOKS
OP THE MIND HYMNS WAITING FOR THEIR
MATES. .... 123
CHAPTER XXV.— 1900.
A POEM BY WILL CARLETON. . . 130
CHAPTER XXVI.— 1843-1903.
OLDEST AND NEWEST HYMNS . . 133
CHAPTER XXVII.— 1903.
A POEM BY MARGARET E. SANGSTER. . . 152
CHAPTER XXVIII.— 1903.
LIVING AND LEARNING STILL THINGS "THEn"
AND NOW FIRST RAILROADS FIRST TELE-
GRAPH-WIRE TELEPHONES NEWSPAPERS
THE MANY OTHER IMPROVEMENTS AND IXVEN-
TIONS^A LIFE OP JOY AND SUNSHINE CON-
TINUALLY MEETING OLD FRIENDS RESIDENCE
IN BROOKLYN REMOVAL TO BRIDGEPORT "AS
YOUNG AS WE FEEL" NO "INFIRMITIES OF
age" HOPE TO BE A CENTENARIAN WILLING
TO GO, WHEN THE LORD CALLS. 15S
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CHAPTER I.— 1820-1825.
INFANCY BLINDED AT SIX WEEKS OF AGE AM
THANKFUL FOR IT NOW PARENTS AND RELA-
TIVES — LONELY AMUSEMENTS — ^ASKING GOD
FOR A CHANCE IN THE WORLD HIS ANSWER
— ^THE BELLIGERENT LAMB DANIEL DREW'S
ATTEMPTED PRESENT OF "STOCK."
IT seemed intended by the blessed Provi-
dence of God, that I should be blind all
my life ; and I thank Him for the dispen-
sation. I was born with a pair of as good
eyes as any baby ever owned; but when I was
six weeks of age, a slight touch of inflamma-
tion came upon them : and they were put under
the care of a physician.
What he did to them, or what happened in
spite of him, I do not know, but it resulted in
their permanent destruction, so far as seeing is
concerned ; and I was doomed to blindness all
the rest of my earthly existence.
I have heard that this physician never ceased
expressing his regret at the occurrence; and
that it was one of the sorrows of his life. But
if I could meet him now, I would say, "Thank
you, thank you — over and over again — for
making me blind, if it was through your
agency that it came about !"
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This sounds strangely to you, reader? But
I assure you I mean it — every word of it ; and
if perfect earthly sight were offered me to-mor-
row, I would not accept it. Did you ever know
of a blind person's talking like this before?
Why would I not have that doctor's mistake
— if mistake it was — remedied? Well, there
are many reasons : and I will tell you some of
them.
One is, that I know, although it may have
been a blunder on the physician's part, it
was no mistake of God's. I verily believe it
was His intention that I should live my days
in physical darkness, so as to be better pre-
pared to sing His praises and incite others so
to do. I could not have written thousands of
hymns — many of which, if you will pardon me
for repeating it, are sung all over the world —
if I had been hindered by the distractions of
seeing all the interesting and beautiful objects
that would have been presented to my notice.
Another reason is, that, while I am deprived
of many splendid sights (which, as above men-
tioned, might draw me away from the principal
work of my life), I have also been spared the
seeing of a great many unpleasant things. The
merciful God has put His hand over my eyes,
and shut out from me the sight of many in-
stances of cruelty and bitter unkindness and
misfortune, that I would not have been able
to relieve, and must simply have suffered in
seeing. I am content with what I can know
of life through the four senses I possess, prac-
tically unimpaired, at eighty-three years of
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Birth and Parentage.
age. Hearing, tasting, smelling, and feeling,
are still felt, in their fullest degree.
Another reason for my apparently strange
assertion is, that I have been able to test and
make sure so many kind and loving friends.
Almost without exception, the great world has
been good to me: all the kinder, perhaps, on
account of what it considered my affliction. I
may say truly that I never for a moment pre-
sumed on my blindness for any extra courtesy
or advantage, yet I have often felt that it was
a bond between sympathetic hearts and mine.
I was born in Putnam County, N. Y., March
24, 1820. My father's name was John Crosby :
he died when I was very young. My grand-
father fought in the War of 1812; my great-
grandfather in the Revolution. My mother's
given name was the good old-fashioned one
of Mercy.
I have always been proud at having been
related, though not very nearly, to that fa-
mous hero of the Revolution, Enoch Crosby.
I have often sat when a little child, and listened
to stories of his courage and heroism. Though
he never came to be an officer, yet it was uni-
versally admitted that he did the Revolutionary
cause more good than many a gallant general.
One of Cooper's most famous novels has him
for its hero. He lies buried now, in a little
country cemetery near Carmel, N. Y., with
scores of my race sleeping around him.
As a child, although blind, I was by no
means helpless, or of a sedentary disposition:
I indulged in manv of the sports enjoyed by
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my little playmates, and romped and clambered
wherever they did. I could climb a tree or ride
a horse as well as any of them, and many good
people when seeing me at play were surprised
at being told of my "misfortune." I attended
school at times, but, of course, could not study :
raised letters for the blind were not common
then.
One of my principal amusements was to sit
with hands clasped, or engaged in some piece
of work with needles, and listen to the many
voices of Nature. The laughing and sighing
of the wind — the sobbing of the storm — ^the
rippling of water — the "rain on the roof" — the
artillery of the thunder — all impressed me
more than I can tell. I lived many lives with
my imagination. Sometimes I was a sailor,
standing at the mast-head, and looking out into
the storm ; sometimes a general, leading armies
to battle; then a clergyman, addressing large
audiences and pleading with them to come to
Christ; then the leader of a gigantic choir of
voices, singing praises to God. My ambition
was boundless ; my desires were intense to live
for some great purpose in the world, and to
make for myself a name that should endure;
Init in what manner was it to be done ?
A poor little blind girl, without influential
friends, could have as many ambitions as any
one ; but how was she to achieve them ? What
was there for her ? The great world that could
see, was rushing past me day by day, and
sweeping on toward the goal of its necessities
and desires ; while I was left stranded by the
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Comfort from Hymns, when a Child.
wayside. "Oh, you cannot do this — ^because
you are blind, you know; you can never go
there, because it would not be worth while:
you could not see anything if you did, you
know": — these and other things were often
said to me, in reply to my many and eager
questionings.
Often, when such circumstances as this made
me very blue and depressed, I would creep off
alone, kneel down, and ask God if, though
bhnd, I was not one of His children; if in all
His great world He had not some little place
for me ; and it often seemed that I could hear
Him say, "Do not be discouraged, little girl:
you shall some day be happy and useful, even in
your blindness." And I would go back among
my associates, cheered and encouraged; and
feeling that it would not be very long before
my life would be full of activity and usefulness.
And so it was, that gradually I began to lose
my regret and sorrow at having been robbed
of sight: little by little God's promises and
consolations came throbbing into my mind.
Not only the Scriptures, but the hymns that I
heard sung Sabbath after Sabbath, made deep
impressions upon me.
With the ultra-acute hearing which gener-
ally accompanies blindness, I could distinguish
every word of the hymns, however indistinctly
they might be sung; and they were in many
cases a refreshment to my young soul. Even
in childhood, I began to wonder who made
those hymns ; and if I myself could ever make
one that people would sing.
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As already indicated, a growing, healthy
girl, although she may be blind, cannot live
entirely in her intellectual nature: and I did
not lack means for my share of the regulation
juvenile sports. I dare say I was as bother-
some to my mother as are most children to
theirs; and was constantly asking for some
novel way by which to amuse myself.
One day she called me to her side, and said,
"Here, Fanny, is a live toy : only be careful of
it and not hurt it."
It was a sweet, lovely pet lamb ! — ^and I seri-
ously thought, for a day or two, of having my
name changed to "Mary", of whom I had heard
as once possessing a similar piece of property,
and of smuggling the dear little pet away to
some school, to see if the teacher would turn
it out, and if it would then linger near, etc. I
finally gave up the idea, but I played with my
little quadrupedal toy morning, noon, and
night: until at last the sturdy creature got
into the habit of playfully butting me over, as
one of its pastimes.
Now came the first tragedy of my life : after
maltreating me several times, and being
promptly forgiven on each occasion by its lov-
ing victim, the "lamb", which was now fast as-
suming the proportions of sheephood. Became
the subject of a star-chamber trial, and was
condemned to death, and to punishment after
death : to be cooked and eaten. Be sure most
of it was done before I knew anything about
it : else probably I should have raised the roof.
The first I knew about it, I was told we were
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Daniel Drezv as a Drover.
to have lamb-chop for dinner: and in the
ominous silence that followed, I divined my
favorite's fate. Tears and fasting followed, but
they were of no avail: the belligerent little
friend was no more.
Daniel Drew, afterwards a celebrated rail-
road magnate, but then a drover, dealing in an
entirely different kind of stock, often passed
our house with droves of sheep and cattle. We
were always great friends : and soon after the
above-mentioned sad event, he came into our
house and placed a small lamb in my arms,
saying, "Here, Fanny, is a present for you";
but I had no heart then to accept it, and de-
clined the gift, to his great surprise.
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CHAPTER 11.-1825.
A SLOOP-JOURNEY DOWN THE HUDSON ^ACTING
AS captain's first mate A PATRIOTIC
SONG DRS. MOTT AND DELAFIELD GIVE AD-
VERSE DECISION BLIND FOR LIFE ! ^THE
SAD JOURNEY HOME — ^WHAT THE WAVES SAID.
ONE evening, when I was about five years
old, my good mother called me to her
from the dooryard, where I had been
playing, and I ran to her side. As I
say, it was evening, but that made no differ-
ence with me: I could play in the night as
well as daytime, and had no trouble in reach-
ing her side, whether the candles were
lighted or not. There were no kerosene lamps
then, and people in the country had to de-
pend for their light upon candles, made by
dipping a wick of cotton repeatedly in melted
tallow, until enough of it clung to the wick to
make a "body" for the apparatus; and when
that was lighted it did not illuminate a house
to any great extent.
Well, my dear mother called me to her side,
and said : "Fanny, I am going to take you on
a little journey. We shall travel first in a
wagon, till we come to the bank of a beautiful
river, with mountains on each side of it ; then
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we shall get into a sail-boat and sail south for
many miles ; then we shall come to a great city,
larger than anything of which you have ever
heard or thought, and stay there for several
days ; and then home again."
The idea of taking a journey filled me with
joy, and I danced about the room with perhaps
not enough attention to the furniture that kept
getting in the way; but my transports were
somewhat modified, when she explained the
object of the expedition — to have a surgical
operation performed upon my eyes. "There
may be some pain with it, Fanny," she ex-
plained: "but you are willing to bear it, are
you not?"
I already knew what pain was : — it is, alas !
one of the first things we learn in life ! and I
shrank a little at the idea of any of it being
inflicted upon me. "But, Fanny," my mother
explained, "perhaps it will result in giving you
your sight : so that you can see everything that
is around you, and play with the rest of the
children exactly as they do, study pretty pic-
tures, and read interesting books, and enjoy
yourself in a hundred ways that you do not, as
your eyes are now." Then I was happy again.
This was in 1825 ; and you may readily be-
lieve that means of communication were not
many and varied, in those days. There was
not even a stage from our home or from near
there, to any point upon the Hudson River.
We started one morning before the early
dawn was in the skies, and rode in a market-
wagon to Sing Sing, on the Hudson, where
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we were to take a sloop for New York ; steam-
boats were still very few and far between. This
musically-named town, in which I thought
every one, probably, belonged to the choir,
was then a small country hamlet, straggling
along the banks of the river — with no idea
that it would ever bear such a prominent part
in the punishment of the malefactors of a
great commonwealth.
So at four o'clock in the soft dawn of that
summer morning, we unfurled our sails, and
went rushing down the river toward the great
metropolis. It is perhaps needless to say that
the novel experience was a delight to me: I
was all over the deck, and soon, I may safely
say, in the good graces of everybody aboard.
I could not of course view the beautiful scenery
through which we were passing; but there
were plenty of friends to describe it to me, and
1 enjoyed it upon the whole as much perhaps
as if I could have seen, and as if I had had to
depend entirely upon my own powers of obser-
vation. I have always delighted in passing
through beautiful scenery, and, indeed, enjoyed
the sensation of traveling — perhaps more than
some that can see ; and I find that other blind
people are the same in this respect.
My poor mother was at times seasick, or,
more accurately expressing it, river-sick : but
I kept well, and after knowing that she was
comfortable in her berth, and being told that
nobody ever died of that kind of sickness, and
that she would be all the better for it soon, I
was the gayest of the gay ; and Captain Green
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A Popular Child-Vocalist.
immediately adopted me as "first mate of the
sloop." I was, I believe, called a fairly pretty
child; and my black curls and frisky manners
did not detract from the five-year-old disposi-
tion that developed in me, to be the belle of
the company.
The dear old Captain pretended to discover
that I was a great vocalist ; and at times kept
me busy singing all the little songs I had gath-
ered up since old enough to learn and under-
stand them. These were not very many or
particularly deep; but they served. One of
them I remember inaugurated itself with the
following impressive lines, sung to a famous
patriotic air:
"I wish I was a Yankee's wife,
And then I would have somethin':
Every fall an ear of corn,
And now and then a pumkin!"
I felt, even then, that there was something a
little irregular in the rhyming of this stanza:
but the Captain pretended to hold my song
particularly in very high esteem, and whenever
he was a little blue, called me to him and
coaxed or hired me to sing it. With the usual
thrift of the accomplished cantatrice, I gradu-
ally increased my prices as the article grew
more and more in dem; nd ; and was very much
disappointed when, a,' er gliding through the
beautiful Highlands and past the impressive
palisades, we arrived in the Big City.
It was early in the morning when we landed,
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Fanny Crosby's Life-Story.
having been twenty-four hours in making the
trip from Sing Sing — a journey that I have
frequently performed since, by railroad, in
fifty-five minutes.
We went to the house of a friend who bore
the good old name of Jacob Smith, at No. lo
Roosevelt Street, a very fine place at that time ;
and soon we were in the presence of the fa-
mous Dr. Valentine Mott. 1 felt that Dr. Mott
had a kind, pleasant face : singularly enough I
have always been able to form a pretty accu-
rate opinion of a countenance, by the voice
that proceeded from it.
Being but a little child, to whom one of
God's creatures was abouit the same as another,
except as they pleased or displeased me, I did
not stand so much in awe of the great Dr.
Mott; but my mother did, and listened with
bated breath to hear what he should say of my
case. It was not the first time that poor
mortals had hung upon his words ; for he was
even then considered the foremost surgeon
of his time. He occupied the chair of sur-
gery in Columbia College, and had performed
operations that no other practitioner ever
dared to undertake. He had, seven years be-
fore, placed a ligature around the brachio-
cephalic trunk, or arteria innominata, only two
inches from the heart, for aneurism of the right
sub-clavian artery; and that for the first time
in the history of surgery. To be sure the
patient died within a month ; but with the com-
forting assurance that he had had something
done to him with a knife, that no other patient
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No Hope for my Eyes.
had ever experienced. And as this was before
the age of chloroform, or any other very ef-
fective ansesthetics, death must certainly have
been a relief.
Well, Dr. Mott and another celebrated sur-
geon at that time, named Dr. Delafield, ex-
amined my eyes and told my tearfully-listening
mother, that there was no hope for them : mal-
practice had spoiled them. And so we re-
turned to our country home — taking the same
sloop and the same market-wagon as those in
which we had come.
The poor doctor who had spoiled my eyes,
soon disappeared from the neighborhood ; and
we never heard any more about him. He is
probably dead, before this time ; but if I could
ever meet him, I would tell him that he unwit-
tmgly did me the greatest favor in the world.
I was more thoughtful and sad on the way
back up the river: the great doctor had not
been above placing his fatherly hand on my
head, and saying, "Poor little girl !" and that
touch of sympathy went with me as I journeyed
homeward. Hour after hour, when I had crept
into my little "bunk" on the sloop, I heard the
dear waves of the river singing to me, and
telling me not to be discouraged. "Fanny, be
brave ! Fanny, be brave !" they seemed to say :
"brighter days will come yet!"
And, indeed, they were coming: although
from what direction I did not then know.
But I never lost my faith in the great Father
above ; I knew that the river-waves were His,
and that I had heard His voice.
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CHAPTER III.— 1830.
BIBLE-INSTRUCTION MY FIRST POEM MY
FIRST LITERARY ADMIRER HIS INABILITY TO
CONCEAL HIS SENTIMENTS A TERRIBLE
THIRST FOR KNOWLEDGE A PLEA FOE MEN-
TAL LIGHT god's goodness IN ANSWERING
PRAYER.
THE greatest piece of good fortune that
attended me when a little girl, was
that I was taught the Bible — ^line upon
line, and precept upon precept. When
nine years old we moved to Ridgefield, Con-
necticut, and there lived for a time in one of
the numerous and intelligent Hawley families,
of which Connecticut has so many, and from
one of which Senator Hawley sprang.
Mrs. Hawley taught me the Bible, and the
poetry of the day, in about equal portions. She
was an old Puritan Presbyterian, and took
everything in the sacred writ as literally as
the most orthodox Scotchman could do; but
she loved at the same time the green meadows
and singing brooks of imagination.
Even when ten years old, I could recite the
first four books of the Old and the first four
books of the New Testament, without a mis-
take ; and I knew secular poems almost with-
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Child-Verses.
out number. Of course, as soon as I began
to hear poetry, it made me want to write some.
] believe I am not entirely unique in this re-
spect : editors tell me that their rnail-bags teem
with poetical attempts made by all sorts of
people in all sorts of places and on all sorts
of subjects.
My first poem, composed when I was eight
years old, was as follows :
Oh, what a happy child I am,
Although I cannot see !
I am resolved that in this world
Contented I will be.
How many blessings I enjoy
That other people don't!
So weep or sigh because I'm blind,
I cannot, nor I won't !
I quote this poem, it is needless to say, not
on account of its literary style, or as anything
very remarkable, except that it gives an indi-
cation of the spirit in which I have taken life
throughout all these eighty-three years — of
optimism, and of thankfulness because I had
as many blessings as I did, rather than of re-
pining because one was left out.
I composed other verses, and always on the
subjects nearest me. The fragrance of a rose
— The singing of the wind in the trees — the
death of a favorite bird — all these inspired me
to juvenile effort; and, anxious to hear what
others thought of my work, it was not long be-
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Fanny Crosby's Life-Story.
fore I began to free these little stanzas from
the leashes of my memory, and let them loose
upon my poor dear mother.
She wrote down some of them, and was
greatly pleased; she and the good IVTrs. Haw-
ley held a literary consultation concerning
them. They decided that they were very good,
for a girl of that age ; and copies were sent to
my grandfather.
I now found my first gallant and unqualified
admirer. The dear old gentleman wrote a very
enthusiastic letter concerning the poor little
"pieces", and told my mother that we indeed
had a poet in the family, and that if I lived and
improved as I ought to do, I would be an
honor to them all. "But," he added, cautious-
ly, "you must not tell her this, or it will make
her proud, and spoil her." And ft is due my
mother's prudence and good sense, to say, that
she never imparted to me anything about my
grandfather's encomiums : but he soon saw me,
and could not refrain from giving them to me
at first hand.
But there was one terrible hunger that af-
flicted me during all these years : and that was
for knowledge — knowledge — knowledge ! I
felt that there were a million things that I
ought to know, and had no means of learning.
If I ever lamented that I was blind, it was
through these opening days of girlhood — and
that for only one cause: the fact that it de-
barred me from reading for myself. The
amount of literature printed in raised letters
for the blind was very limited in those days,
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Praying, Instead of Complaining.
and I had been so accustomed to knitting, that
my fingers were not adapted to learning how
to read by such means, even if alphabets for
the blind had been common.
So, night and night again, I have gone to
bed drearily, weeping because I could not drink
of the waters of knowledge that I knew were
surging all around me. I felt at times like a
sailor on a great lake of fresh, crystal water,
heated and thirsty, but bound hand and foot,
so that he could not get to the blessed relief.
"Dear God, please give me light!" was my
prayer, day by day. I did not mean physical
light — but mental ! I had long been contented
to bear the burden of blindness : but my edu-
cation — my education — how was I to get it?
The ordinary schools could do little for me; I
was not able to read and educate myself, as
many home-students have done ; those around
had little time to read to me ; and I felt as if I
were in danger of growing more and more
ignorant every day. God help those who thirst
for knowledge, and find every way for obtain-
ing it cut off !
Sooner or later, I always rose from my knees
feeling that these prayers would be answered.
God has always had a way of granting my pe-
titions to Him, some wonderful examples of
which I shall give, farther along in this book.
How much better it is to pray, hopefully
and with faith, for those things we need, than
to fret and complain because we do not already
possess them !
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CHAPTER IV.— 1835.
A THRILLING ANNOUNCEMENT AN EDUCATION
AT LAST ! ON THE "tIPTOE OF EXPECTATION"
STARTING FOR SCHOOL — ^ARRIVAL AT THE
INSTITUTION FOR THE BLIND — ^A HELPER OF
OPPRESSED GREEKS — ^AN ACQUAINTANCE OF
LORD BYRON SCHOOL-LIFE STARTS OFF
WELL.
SO matters ran on, until I was fifteen years
old: and then, one day, something was
told me that brought a thrill of joy and
delight never, never to be forgotten.
"Fanny, arrangements have been made for
you to attend the school for the blind, in New
York."
Only a few words, but what a flood of joy
they admitted to the poor sad little soul that
had SO long pined and prayed for knowledge!
God had responded to my prayer, at last-
through His own means, and by His own faith-
ful helpers. Oh, if the founders and sustainers
of such institutions could only know a mil-
lionth part of the joy they cause, they would
feel repaid for their money and their efforts —
again and again !
Of course, I was upon the very tiptoe of ex-
pectation — my joy only tempered by the fact
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Starting for School at Last!
that I should have to leave behind my dear
mother, and the friends whom I had learned to
love. But the distance was not great, and,
so to speak, was becoming less and less all the
time, owing to constantly increasing facilities
of travel; and I was told that I could return
during every vacation, and oftener if I or they
should at any time be ill.
The preparations were few and simple: a
girl then did not require so many appur-
tenances when starting for school, as she does
now. I was soon ready : and left home on the
3d of March, 1835 — searching, as upon my
voyage of ten years before, for light — but this
time for the mental, instead of the physical,
light that should illuminate my mind, and make
me happy ever after.
This time, we did not go down the Hudson
River, upon a sail-boat: we first journeyed to
Norwalk, and there took a steamer for New
York.
This, although vastly different from the
mammoth sound-steamers of today, served the
turn, and brought us through very comfort-
ably : and I was cordially received by Dr. John
Denison Russ, who was then Superintendent
of the Institution. He was only thirty-four
years old, but had already been through an
interesting and varied experience. He had
settled in New York as a physician after
graduating at Yale College, but one year after-
ward, in 1826, he was so moved with pity at
the suflferings of the struggling Greeks, that
he went to their aid with a cargo of supplies,
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from Boston, and remained there three years,
during which time he estabUshed a hospital at
Poros, and conducted it personally for fifteen
months.
Returning to New York in 1834, he began
at his own expense the instruction of six blind
boys ; but the same year, was appointed Super-
intendent of the Institution of which I was
happily so soon to become an inmate.
While in Greece, he had been intimately as-
sociated with Lord Byron. I shall never forget
the thrill of delight, upon meeting some one
that had actually known the great poet, whose
verses I had already learned to admire. He
was full of reminiscences of the poet-patriot,
and his recounting of them at times had a great
fascination.
Everything started off well: I was a little
homesick at first, but frequent letters and new-
made friends soon softened that feeling; while
fresh facts and ideas were sent thronging
every day into my mind.
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CHAPTER v.— 1835-1836.
SCHOOL-LIFE THE MONSTER ARITHMETIC AND
ITS TERRORS — METAL SLATES IN LOVE WITH
OTHER STUDIES — "DROP INTO POETRy" NOW
AND THEN TEMPTATIONS TO VANITY ^A
BENEFICIAL "CALL-DOWN" FROM THE SUPER-
INTENDENT — ^ALL FOR MY OWN GOOD.
BEHOLD me, now, Miss Fanny Crosby,
full-fledged student, in a city school!
I assure you, it seemed a great step
forward — and upward — to me; one
that I had coveted through many years ; one
whose first joy I can never forget.
Some young ladies creep ofif to boarding-
school unwillingly, and as a solemn duty, and
maybe I would do so, were I in their place;
but under all these circumstances, the occur-
rence was a great pleasure in my life, though
for a time, as stated in the preceding chapter,
I was a little homesick, and longed often to
meet again my dear mother and friends.
But the world seems built a good deal lite
the track of a hurdle-race : you are apparently
skipping along at great speed, and all at once
you encounter something that must be im-
mediately overcome before you can go a step
farther !
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Fanny Crosby's Life-Story.
The first obstacle that I found standing in
my way and looming up like a great monster,
was Arithmetic. I have never been a very
good hater, even when the best material was
provided for the purpose; but I found myself
an adept at the art of loathing, when it came
to the Science of Numbers. The culinary poet
who in a fit of dyspepsia exuded the statement
"I loathe, abhor, detest, despise
Those pastry-wrecks, dried apple pies",
had a parodist in me. I could not agree with
him concerning the article of food in question,
for I like almost everything that a good cook
can send to the table; but I could say, at that
time,
"I loathe, abhor, it makes me sick
To hear the word Arithmetic !"
However, this great foe to my peace of mind
had to be conquered, and at it I went, with a
vengeance — ^wishing that every assault would
give the Arithmetic a twinge of pain. But no !
I was well aware of the fact that the sturdy old
creature went right on, without minding me
at all, through all the affairs of life, and that
we could not do much of anything very long,
without consulting him.
The great variety of resources that this ter-
rible study possessed with which to frighten
and appal the student, was something terrible
to contemplate. Addition and Subtraction
went on fairly well, and did not give me so
very much trouble ; but when the Multiplication
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We Study by Listening.
Table made its appearance on the scene, that
was an entirely different matter. The only
alleviation of its miseries was, that it came in
a kind of poetical form — a swinging, rhymeless
sort of poetry, to be sure — blank verse, I
should call it; but that fact, as with many
other students, aided me to remember it.
Our toil in Arithmetic was materially aided
by metal slates, which had holes in them, with
which we could count and realize the numbers
as we went on. But I never became an ac-
complished mathematician, although our
school upon the whole was said to be much
more advanced in mathematics than students
of the same age that could see.
Grammar, Philosophy, Astronomy, and Po-
litical Economy followed, among our studies .
and with all of these I was in love. Our les-
sons were given us in the form of lectures and
readings, and not many words that came to
our ears managed to slip away from us. Indeed,
we could not afford to let them do so ; for we
were closely examined each day by means of
questions asked by the teachers, and our jjro-
gress and standing in the school depended
largely upon our ability to remember and re-
count these lessons.
Noticing the respect and deference paid to
our instructors, and realizing how much more
personal independence they had, feeling that
I wanted to be financially as self-reliant as
possible, and most of all wishing to please,
comfort, and help my dear mother, I made up
my mind to be a teacher, as soon as I could.
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Fanny Crosby's Life-Story.
Nor did I forget the other friends of my
babyhood and youthhood — especially the dear,
gallant old grandfather who had so en-
thusiastically announced that "we had a poet
in the family." I composed several little
poems from time to time, which, it is no more
than fair to say, were received with great
favor, by both teachers and fellow-pupils. In
the mind of a girl in her "teens", this would
naturally produce a little feeling of self-gratu-
lation, and it is possible that in my appearance
or behavior, an "air" or two appeared.
Perhaps Mr. Jones, the Superintendent at
that time, noticed it : for one morning he came
into the school-room, and said,
"I would like to have Fanny Crosby come
into my room for a few minutes."
I went, readily enough; supposing that a
new ode or other kind of lyric was to be or-
dered, to the honor of some distinguished per-
son or event: and, perhaps, a little proudly,
stood before the Superintendent, at his desk,
awaiting his wishes, and hoping that I could
find time, among my other duties, to accord
to them.
His very first words were a most emphatic
surprise, and fully disposed of my theory that
I was to write a new poem by request.
"Fanny," he said, "your — your attempts at
poetry, have brought you into prominence
here in the school, and a great deal of flattery
has been the result. Shun a flatterer, Fanny,
as you would a snake !
Now, I am going to give you some clean
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Some First-Class Advice.
truth, which may hurt just now, but will be of
great use one of these days.
"As yet, you know very little about poetry,
or, in fact, anything else — compared to what
there is to be known. You have almost all of
it yet to learn.
"Do not think too much about rhymes, and
the praises that come for them. Store your
mind with useful knowledge and think more
of what you can be, than of how you can appear.
"The favor and laudation of the world,
Fanny, is a very fragile thing upon which to
depend. Try to merit the approval of God, and
of yourself, as well as that of your fellow-
creatures.
"Remember that the very air you breathe—
the very food you eat — all the ability or talent
that you may develop — come from God.
"Remember that you are always in His pres-
ence: and who has any right to be vain for a
moment, when standing before the great
Owner and Creator of all things ?"
He talked to me in this way, kindly but firm-
ly, for perhaps five minutes ; and at the end of
that time he had convinced me that instead of
being the great poet Fanny Crosby, I was
really the ignorant young school-girl, who as
yet knew scarcely anything whatever.
His words were bomb-shells in the camp of
my self-congratulatory thoughts : but they did
me an immense amount of good. Something
said to me, "He tells the truth, Fanny, and it
is all for your own benefit."
Still, the hot tears came to my eyes, as per-
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haps they would have done to those of any
ambitious girl: and I naturally felt much pain
and mortification at his words. But a reaction
of feeling soon took place: and going around
behind his chair, and putting my arms around
his neck, I kissed him on the forehead. "You
have talked to me as my father would have
talked, were he living," I said, "and I thank
you for it, over and over again. You have
given me a lesson that I might have had to
learn through bitter experience, and I shall
profit by it."
And I believe I have done so : at least I have
tried, through all these eighty-three years. I
have done my best to remember that not my
poor insignificant self, but the great God above,
was entitled to the credit for whatever I could
accomplish ; and to keep the monster Egotism
from coming up between my duty and me.
If in this autobiography, in which I am try-
ing to give a true story of my life, the pro-
noun of the first person singular number is too
often used, the reader must forgive: it is be-
cause it is unavoidable, and not because it is
in my heart.
CHAPTER VI.— 1835-1858.
INCITEMENTS TO AMBITION — GREAT PEOPLE
WHO WERE BLIND THE IMMORTAL HOMER —
THE KING-POET OSSIAN — ^JOHN MILTON AND
HIS GENIUS FRANCIS HUBER, THE NATURAL-
IST OTHERS WHOSE CAREERS GAVE US EN-
COURAGEMENT.
AMONG the interesting things that we
were taught in our Institution, at the
very outset, was the fact that scores
and hundreds of individuals had
achieved fame and fortune, in spite of blind-
ness.
We were told about Homer, the greatest poet
of antiquity, who, while traveling to get ma-
terial for his immortal work, contracted a dis-
ease of the eyes, which made him blind for-
ever: but who worked away with renewed
ardor; and who, although he died poor,
achieved an immortal fame — such as many
people would be willing to go blind all their
lives, if they could attain.
We were told of Ossian, the Celtic king —
who, it is said, was a warrior while he could
see, but became a poet after he was stricken
with blindness, and sung songs that made him
famous forever. Indeed, we were told that
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Fanny Crosby's Life-Story.
his very existence was disputed by some
critics: but, for that matter, the same experi-
ence had befallen the names of Homer, Virgil,
Julius Csesar, and William Tell. There
seemed fully as much reason to believe that
he existed, as that he did not ; and, as he was,
in a manner, one of us, we preferred to take
the affirmative of the question.
We were told of Milton, who lost his eye-
sight from a disease caused by incessant study
while he was young: but who, as the light of
this world became gradually shut out, grew
more and more luminous himself, with sacred
lore and imagination. As we heard of the
daughters who read to him, and wrote down
his grand lines, and who, alas! did not seem
always to appreciate the great privilege, many
of us girls felt that if we could only have had
our sight and assisted such a grand man as
that, we would have asked not a single addi-
tional pleasure in the world !
Of course we were all proud of Francis
Huber, who, notwithstanding the cataracts
that grew over his eyes, and blinded him at
last, became the historian and biographer of
those swift-winged messengers between flower
and flower, and garden and hive — the bees.
Within his mind he seemed to have construct-
ed a great hive of learning, wherein he sorted,
arranged, and made use of the facts that others
brought him. He had patience to analyze and
compare the different experiments that were
made under his direction and that of others —
which qualities he might have lacked or never
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Anything — With God's Help!
have developed, if he had been "favored" with
the power of seeing.
Added to these illustrious names, were
given us many who had not climbed to the
very top round of fame, but who, although
blind, had accomplished more than the aver-
age degree of success, in their various callings.
Science, mechanics, the "learned professions",
and all the miscellaneous pursuits, we found
had been ornamented, to a greater or less ex-
tent, by the blind.
With this, we were taught that whatever we
determined to do, if within the average power
of man or woman, we could, with God's help,
do — the same as if we had the blessings of
sight: and at it we went with a will.
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CHAPTER VII.— 1835-1858.
VACATIONS PUPILS WHO ENJOY AND PUPILS
WHO DO NOT ENJOY THEM AWAITED EACH
TIME BY MOTHER AND SISTERS CANDY AND
FLOWERS SAVED UP EXCURSIONS SWEET
INQUISITIVENESS — ^AN ENTHUSIASTIC AUDI-
ENCE SISTERS STILL SPARED.
AMONG pleasant school-memories, the
vacations are likely to bear a promi-
nent part. However well a student
may love the studies and the discipline
of scholastic life, occasional seasons of rest
are generally anticipated with keen relish.
1 say "generally", because, alas ! there are
always more or less in every school, who have
no pleasant homes to which they can go. Few
students are so to be pitied, as are these :
others' delight, contrasted with their own lone-
liness, makes their lot peculiarly hard to bear.
It is one of the numerous blessings which
our dear Lord has showered upon me, that I
have the most beautiful and winsome of vaca-
tion-recollections. Not only my dear and
precious mother, but two younger sisters al-
ways awaited me with many expressions and
other manifestations of delight, and made the
occasional home-comings trebly pleasant.
4-'
Vacai ion-Deligh ts.
At the coming of vacation, I always has-
tened home as soon as possible : and invariably
found that a royal reception had been reserved
and kept in readiness for "Sister Fan." It
was touching to know that the dear little tots
had been exercising their ingenuity to its full-
est extent, to make their "big sister" feel the
deliciousness of the home that she could not
see. Sundry bits of candy that had been reso-
lutely saved up for many weeks were slipped
into my hand; flowers of every kind were
brought me, with their fine velvety blossoms
and rich delicate fragrance. Excursions were
planned, to the shadiest of nooks and the most
delightful of forests; and often to the homes
of dear friends, who received us with unaffect-
ed kindness.
And the questions that I had to answer!
Each little sister had a set entirely of her own,
and all had to be duly considered faithfully
answered, before the little cross-examiners
were satisfied. Of course it was a pleasure to
tell everything to such attentive and apprecia-
tive listeners : and I fully availed myself of the
chance.
Every pupil in the school had to be duly
described; the teachers, with their various pe-
culiarities, all came in for a share of the exami-
nation. Then there were the distinguished
visitors that had favored our Institution with
their calls : these all had to be reviewed in due
course. How often do I remember that small
family-group: the two little sisters snuggling
up to me and clinging to my hands, and my
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mother sitting close by, and listening to it all
with an indulgent smile, which I could feel
though I could not see!
Of course every poem that I had composed
since I saw them before, had to be duly re-
cited, and subjected to their criticism. This,
however, I am bound to say, was generally
favorable, to a degree that bordered on enthu-
siasm; and it would not have been exactly
comfortable for any one rash enough to have
intimated to them that their big sister was not
the greatest poet of ancient and modern times !
Of course I knew that they would know
better, when they became older; but their
sweet childish partiality still lingers in my
memory, like the fragrance of sweetest
flowers.
It has been my blessed privilege to have
these sisters spared to me : one of them, Mrs.
Carrie W. Rider, is now my daily companion,
and loving protector; while the other, Mrs.
Julia Athington, is a near neighbor to us.
1 also have several nephews and nieces, at
whose homes I am always welcome : and many
sweet little vacations are still spent with them.
While nearly all humanity, so far as 1 have
met it, has treated me as a dear sister, there is
yet a peculiar and intense pleasure, in feeling
that my own near relatives are so loving and
congenial.
I am sure the reader will pardon this little
digression into family matters : they are a part
of me, and necessarily form a portion of mv
autobiography.
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CHAPTER VriL— 1836-1837.
BLIND STUDENTS, ALSO, HAVE "sPORTIVE"
MOODS SOCIALS, MUSICALES, AND SOIREES
HAZING TENDER ATTACHMENTS "iNNO-
CENT" THEFTS — ^A WATERMELON ADVEN-
TURE DEAR MR. STEVENS' FIFTEEN-MINUTE
NAP A GOOD LAUGH OVER THE AFFAIR.
BLIND Students, as well as others, have
their merry and sportive moods. They
can "see" a joke, just as well as if
they were not debarred from physical
sight; and many are the "games" that they
perpetrate upon each other.
It may readily be surmised, then, that our
amusements in the Institution were many and
varied; and that we indulged in most of the
pleasant little plays and other diversions that
vary the monotony of "seeing" school-people.
Our socials, musicales, and soirees, were
largely frequented by friends from outside, as
well as by those of our own number.
Even the cruel process of "hazing" was not
always left out of our school-life, although, of
course, it was constantly discouraged by the
teachers, and the more orderly of the pupils.
I suppose we considered ourselves entitled to
all the privileges of other schools !
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Of course, the Institution being co-educa-
tional, more or less "tender attachments", of
greater or less duration, were formed: and in
these cases, love often laughed at oculars, as
well as locksmiths. The chapel was a favorite
place for short "spooning" seasons, and several
students who could manipulate the piano, had
preconcerted chords which they struck, or
tunes which they played, to let each other
know that they were there, and waiting for
an interview.
Now and then an innocent theft occurred.
One in which I am half ashamed to confess I
was interested, took place one evening in the
garden. The teachers and students had culti-
vated a fine lot of vegetables : and among them
we knew that there were some luscious water-
melons, and our mouths naturally watered for
a share.
All at once, a rumor was circulated that
these melons were to be sold for the benefit
of the school ! Whereat, a quiet consternation-
meeting was held, and we decided that, when
it came to what we considered as partly our
own melons, there were different ways of bene-
fiting the Institution. A few of us decided to
have at least one of the largest of the juicy
oblong globes, that very night.
I was only eighteen years old, then, and
may be pardoned for relishing an adventure
that savored somewhat of the madcap variety.
Taking with me into the garden one of the
smaller girls, I concealed her as well as I
could (for it was a moonlight night), told her
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Not a Single Boy in Sight.
to hang on for dear life to a large watermelon
that presented itself, and started out to do a
little reconnoitering with the senses of touch
and hearing.
Ah! a step! — I knew it right well: it was
that of Mr. Stevens, the gardener.
"Why, Mr. Stevens!" I exclaimed: "you
here? — How do you happen to be walking up
and down at this hour of the night?"
"I'm watching out for some of them miser-
able boys that's tryin' to steal the melons",
said the kind but reliable old gentleman. "I'll
catch 'em, yet."
"Don't you want me to watch awhile for
you, Mr. Stevens?" I inquired, demurely.
"You go in and rest : your voice sounds tired.
Go and sit down for fifteen minutes, and I'll
stay out here, and watch for you. And de-
pend upon it, if a single boy comes, I'll let you
know."
Saying this, I led the dear old gentleman in-
doors, seated him in an easy chair, placed my
cool hand on his brow to soothe him a little,
and told him to sit there and rest, while I would
go on watch for a quarter of an hour. Then I
went back to my little stowaway in the garden.
"Take the melon, if you're big enough, and
run for our room as soon as you can !" I whis-
pered. She needed only one set of directions ;
and girl and melon were soon quite a distance
away.
At the end of the fifteen minutes, I went
back to Mr. Stevens, and told him that not a
boy had been near; and, having by this time
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enjoyed a good rest and a quiet little nap, he
went back to his vigil, first thanking me for
my help.
When I returned to the room, the dissected
fruit was all ready to be still further dissected :
and we enjoyed it all the better for the mild
little adventure.
A few years afterward, I told the Superin-
tendent about it, and we enjoyed a hearty
laugh together over the incident. "To think
how you blind children were all the while get-
ting the start of us 'seeing' people!" he
chuckled. As for good Mr. Stevens, the
gardener, he had then gone on where, it is to
be hoped, wicked boys and girls do not molest,
and where watermelons would not be particu-
larly refreshing.
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CHAPTER IX.— 1836-1842.
"strenuous" work — HOW A BLIND PERSON
CAN TOIL, INTELLECTUALLY BECOME ONE
OF THE TEACHERS THE "WITCHING SPRITE"
OF POETRY — FORBIDDEN TO COMPOSE ANY
POETRY FOR THREE MONTHS PHRENOLOGY
TO THE RESCUE !
I THINK it may be said truly that I toiled
night and day. "How can a blind person
work intellectually?" — do you ask? Bet-
ter perhaps than one that can see. It is
not necessary for us to record in writing as we
go along, everything we think and accomplish :
we can put it upon the tablets of memory, and
copy it down or have it copied as we get op-
portunity. Memory, when cultivated, grows
a wonderful treasure-house of ripened grain.
I do not want to boast of my progress ; but
as I look back over the past, it gives me a little
feeling of pride to be able to say that at the
rather early age of twenty-two, I was consid-
ered competent to teach Grammar, Rhetoric,
and Ancient and Modern History ; and became
one of the regular instructors of the Institu-
tion.
What a pleasure it then was, to feel that I
was imparting to others the same blessings of
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knowledge for which I had longed, through so
many weary days and nights !
While preparing for this position, there was
still one restless, witching little sprite that kept
creeping up to me by night and day, and in-
viting me to take trips with her into the un-
known ; and the name of that sprite was Poetry.
She was ever tugging away at my hands, or
my hair, or my heartstrings, and whispering,
"Sister Fanny, come with me."
The faithful Superintendent seemed in doubt
whether to encourage me in my poetical pur-
suits or not. He finally talked to me a long
while on the subject, said there were a great
many people who wrote rhymes because they
were poetry-lovers rather than poets, and
finally gently but firmly forbade my producing
any more of the dangerous article, for three
months.
I did not understand his object in doing this ;
but suppose now that it was to see if a certain
amount of abstinence would not cure me of the
habit, or disease, whichever he considered it.
I did not like it, "a little bit"; but, feeling
that the good Superintendent knew what was
best for me, I acquiesced, and religiously
avoided a rhyme as I would the measles.
It was one of the trials of my life: for,
whether or not I would "lisp in numbers", they
inevitably "came."
Singularly enough I soon gained my little tri-
umph in the matter ; for about this time we had
a visit from Dr. George Combe, a distinguished
phrenologist, of Scotland. Dr. Combe had
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A Boy-Mathematician.
found himself a convert to the science, in Edin-
burgh, while Spurzheim was there; and had
published several works on the subject.
When he came to America, he "took in" our
school, among the other sights ; and several of
us had the honor of feeling the touch of his
learned hand upon our throbbing, and, I trust,
not distended heads.
Just before he came to me, he examined the
phrenological organs of one of our boy-pupils.
"Why, here is a splendid mathematician!" he
exclaimed. "He could do anything in mathe-
matics !" And the Doctor was right ; for this
little fellow was almost another Zera Colburn.
He could already do a great many wonderful
things : for instance, he could listen to two per-
sons talking to him at the same time, and then,
while singing a song, could inform both of
them the number of seconds they were old —
they of course first giving him the years, weeks,
and months. (I used to notice, by the way,
that very few ladies availed themselves of the
ofifered courtesy.)
When I heard the boy praised, and reflected
on those wonderful things he could do, I was
almost envious, and wondered why the good
Lord could not have given me a few of the
figures and groups of figures that seemed to
line every portion of his brain. I trembled
when my turn came to have the head examined,
and felt a wild impulse to run. Dr. Combe
said,
"Why! here is a poet! Give her every ad-
vantage that she can have; let her hear the
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best books and converse with the best writers ,
and she will make her mark in the world."
The next morning our Superintendent sent
for me to come to his room. "Fanny," he ex-
claimed, "you may write all the poetry you want
to." From that time, the advice of Dr. Combe
was followed : I was prompted to write poetry,
was taught how lines should rhyme, and in
every way encouraged. And I am bound to
say that for a great part of this favorable de-
cision as regarded the wooing of my muse, I
was indebted to Phrenology, and the good Dr.
Combe.
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CHAPTER X.— 1842-1843.
DR. combe's endorsement IS OF BENEFIT —
THE "poet laureate" OF THE INSTITUTION —
TAUGHT HOW TO WRITE POETRY HAMILTON
MURRAY'S AID A REUNION AFTER SIXTY-
FIVE years' ABSENCE.
FROM the time that good Dr. Combe
proclaimed me a poet, I was so con-
sidered by my teachers and associates ;
and they "knew then that they had
known the fact from the first." But it takes
a certain amount of outside endorsement to
make even our best and nearest friends appre-
ciate us ; and this I had heretofore lacked. It
was for the famous Scotch Phrenologist to set
me, if I can say it without being suspected of
a pun, upon my poetical feet.
I was now, I think it may be said without
vanity, considered as the poet laureate of our
Institution; and the teachers evidently deter-
mined to make a first-class writer of me, if cul-
tivation could do it. I was taught all the in-
tiicacies of verse, until I began to wonder that
the subject which I had considered as a very
simple, easy sort of thing, had so many com-
plications. I was taught to analyze, to parse,
to scan, to write in different measures ; and be-
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gan to worry lest I should disappoint the high
expectations that the phrenologist had raised.
Among the most potential aids I received at
the time, was that from a gentleman named
Hamilton Murray. Mr. Murray claimed that
he could not write poetry, but could teach
others how to do so; and as pupils in that
branch of study were not numerous, he seemed
to take especial pleasure in giving me prosodi-
cal instruction. He had a poetic temperament,
and a fine rich voice: and hour after hour he
would read me some of the grandest poems he
could find in English literature.
This, as you may readily imagine, was a lux-
urious feast: and a benefit. Mr. Murray also
encouraged me to imitate, as nearly as I could,
the different poetical masters of that day — as
Bryant, Willis, etc. He pointed out, with much
delicacy, the different defects in my literarj'
style, and tried his best to remove them. With
rare faithfulness, and with much kindness, con-
sidering that his pupil was not a rich man's
daughter, but a poor blind girl just starting in
life, he toiled for my benefit ; and though I
could not pay him in money, he had my heart-
felt gratitude. He has long walked the streets
of the great Tuneful City: and I hope some
day to meet him there, grasp him by the hand,
and thank him once more.
Not long ago, I had the pleasure of meeting
his nephew, Mr. Bronson Murray, of New
York: whom I had also known at that time.
He was of about my own age, and from him I
had always received the most gentle and manly
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courtesies. We now met again for the first
time in sixty-five years : and thfe reminiscences
that were awakened, may be readily imagined.
Seldom have I enjoyed a visit so much.
How do these old friendships draw com-
pound interest, as the years go on ! And what
a grand treat it will be, in the next world, to
meet all those whom we have known and
loved here, and talk over the events of the
past!
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CHAPTER XL— 1842-1845.
MUSICAL DIVERSIONS FOR THE BLIND NEIGH-
BORLY CALLS SOIREES — WILLIAM CULLEN
BRYANT VISITS US HIS KINDNESS TO THE
GIRL-POET TWO VISITS WITH HORACE GREE-
LEY SHOWING PEOPLE ABOUT THE INSTITU-
TION HOW THE BLIND "FIND THE WAY TO
THEIR MOUTHS."
WE had fine music in our school; for
as is well known, some of the Best
musicians in the world come from
among the blind. Indeed, an aug-
mented delicacy of hearing generally com-
pensates for loss of sight. We often had
"musical soirees", and invited our neighbors
in the city: and one evening we were electri-
fied by the intelligence that the great William
Cullen Bryant was coming as one of our
guests !
Bryant was at that time the best-known
American poet. Longfellow had not then writ-
ten the books upon which hang most of his
fame; Whittier was yet known rather as an
Anti-Slavery agitator than as a writer of verse ;
and Willis, though a brilliant author and trav-
eler, was obliged to yield to his older and more
finished contemporary.
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William Cullen Bryant; Horace Greeley.
Bryant had composed at twenty-three his
"Thanatopsis", the sweetest apology for Death
in any language (I wonder if that was the rea-
son Death finally spared him so long?). He had
with his other poems attracted the attention
and commanded the admiration of the world;
had traveled extensively in Europe; and had
now (1843) settled down for a time in editorial
work.
As was the case almost wherever he went, he
was obliged to hold a little impromptu recep-
tion at our soiree ; and among those that were
introduced to him, was poor little timid I, who
had very little hope that he would greet me
otherwise than conventionally, and as a
stranger of whom he had never heard before.
To my surprise, however, he gave me a
warm grasp of the hand, commented upon my
poor little rhythmical efforts, commended them
in a tone that I felt to be sincere, and told me
to go on bravely and determinedly with my
work. He never knew how much good he did,
by those few words, to the young girl that had
hardly hoped to touch the hem of his proud
robe of poetic genius!
At a children's party on New Year's, 1844, I
met for the first time Horace Greeley. He was
then only thirty-three years old; had come to
New York a journeyman printer, and fought
his way into recognition. He had already
founded the "Tribune", and, of course, to meet
.■him was an event.
But I must say that I at first was disappoint-
ed in him : perhaps I expected too much. "Is
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that the great Horace Greeley?" I pondered,
after hearing him talk. I had never been able
to read any of his editorials, but concluded, in
my inexperience, that if they were no more
briUiant than his conversation, the world was
making a queer mistake in honoring him.
I did not understand, at that time, as I have
learned since, that great men have widely vary-
ing moods, and that they are at one time si-
lently gathering up that which at another they
dispense so lavishly.
The following summer I happened to meet
him at the house of a mutual friend; and a
more charming and intelligent conversation-
alist, I never heard. History, literature, social
ethics, political economy — all subjects — seemed
perfectly natural and easy to him ; and no one
else wished to talk, so long as he could be kept
talking.
Of course, being human, I did not admire
him one whit the less, when he insisted on my
reciting to him some of my little poems, praised
them, and invited me to write for his paper !
I hardly knew whether I walked or flew to
my room that night : I was so proud at having
been recognized as a poet by such a great
genius as Horace Greeley!
On another occasion, during that same year,
I remember feeling equally proud; and that
was when I heard that my gallant old grand-
father, who had been so enthusiastic in praising
my juvenile abilities and so anxious that I
should not be spoiled, wrote that he walked
four miles to get a paper that had in it a poem
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written by me, and felt well paid for his trouble !
Our little Institution of one hundred and
fifty students was under State control and pat-
ronage, and the Government naturally took
much interest in it, and sent us as many in-
terested visitors as it could. Institutions for
the benefit of the blind were not so common as
they are now, and we were quite objects of
curiosity. The visitors, having read my poems
in the different papers, where they had been
published and republished, sometimes asked to
be shown about the place by me. It was,
in a manner, the blind leading those that were
not blind; but I knew every inch of the estab-
lishment, almost as well as if I could see.
For a time, this piloting was a pleasant nov-
elty ; but, of course, it finally grew a little irk-
some to answer the same questions again and
again, and I became quite willing to depute
the pleasure to others. One bright boy, who
had been guiding a large party of ladies and
gentlemen through the rooms and halls, report-
ed that they had asked him as they entered the
dining-room, how blind people managed to find
the way to their mouths while eating. "What
did you tell them ?" we inquired. "I informed
them," said the blind boy, gravely, "that we
hitched one end of a string to the leg of our
chair, and the other to our tongue; and by
that means managed to prevent the victuals
losing their way."
The teachers gently reproved him ; but I had
opportunity to know, that they laughed over
the queer little episode, many times, afterward,
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CHAPTER XII.— 1843.
A TRIP ON "the raging CANAWL" ITS WON-
DERS AND ITS DELIGHTS THROUGH THE MO-
HAWK VALLEY AND AWAY TOWARD THE
LAKES ^AN EXPECTED FUNERAL PROCESSION
TURNS INTO A "CIRCIS" ENTERTAINMENTS
ALL ALONG THE WAY MAYORS OF TOWNS
PRESIDE BLIND AND SEEING PEOPLE COME
FROM ALL DIRECTIONS BUFFALO AND NI-
AGARA FALLS ARE REACHED.
ONE of the most enjoyable trips I ever
took in connection with our Institu-
tion for the Blind, was — not in a
daintily upholstered palace car — not
in a finely appointed and swiftly gliding ocean-
steamship — not in an exquisitely poised and
jauntily driven mountain coach — but — strange
to say! — upon a canal-boat.
Railroads were not bewilderingly plenty, in
those days, as they are now; and it had not
occurred to anybody that it would be desirable
to build one along the valley of the Mohawk
River, and then away off still westward — ^west-
ward — to Buffalo — to Chicago — to the very
Pacific Ocean itself! If any one had told us
that such a thing would happen, "one of these
days", we would have considered him as one
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of the blind who was trying to lead the blind.
But, largely through the energy and perse-
verance of Governor DeWitt Clinton, an arti-
ficial river had been stretched from the Hudson
to Lake Erie ; and few that are living now, can
comprehend what a convenience and help to
the country was this great highway of waves.
Miniature ships — propelled by horses and
mules, carrying great boat-loads of merchan-
dise up and down through the country, may
still be seen, by passengers on the New York
Central Railroad trains, from the windows of
its fast-flying coaches; and they think little of
them.
But in those days they were among the
principal commercial institutions of the coun-
try. When the Erie Canal was opened. Gover-
nor Clinton, who had dug the first spadeful of
earth in the construction of the giant channel,
was greeted, on his first trip, all along the line,
with the ringing of bells, and the firing of can-
non, and more or less eloquent speeches
wherever he would stop long enough to hear
them. It would be interesting if one could
know how many people thronged the banks of
the Erie Canal, during those days of triumph,
to see Governor Clinton go past !
One who from curiosity or other reason
visits the crafts employed nowadays, can form
little idea of the elegance with which passenger,
or "packet" boats were fitted up, in those days.
Many people preferred traveling in them, even
when on business, to using stage-coach or car-
riage ; and a long boat-ride, through the finest
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of scenery, among pleasant people, without
jolting, and surrounded with the comforts of
every-day life — ^was not half unenjoyable.
So we had, as it were, our "private car", all
to ourselves ; and were not long in taking pos-
session of, and appropriating it. The crew,
consisting of captain, driver, and maid, met us
rather coldly, when we came on board, and
acted as if they were afraid of us; but they
soon found out, as they expressed it, that we'd
"do." They explained, after getting acquaint-
ed, that they had supposed we would be a quiet,
sad, sober, melancholy lot of people, moping
about with grief on our faces, the constant
burden of whose song was, "I'm blind, oh, I'm
blmd."
Without wishing to recommend too highly
the vivacity of my companions and myself, I
may say, that they revised their opinions, with-
in about five minutes after we got on board.
They found that we were inclined to enjoy life
in every way that solid instruction and inno-
cent amusement could give. It was not long
before we knew our temporary aquatic guard-
ians "as well as if we'd been through 'em
with a lantern", as the captain luminously ex-
pressed it. We were all over the boat in a
jiffy, and knew every nook and corner of it
before the expedition started. "Well, you're
a rum lot. Miss Crosby", the Captain confided
to me, in one of our first conversations: "an'
it's the jolliest crew I ever shipped. To tell
the truth, I dreaded you, an' expected to strike
a sort of fun'ral percession, the hull length of
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the big ditch; but I guess it's goin' to be a
circis, all the way, an' a good one."
It was not a "circis" all the way, for there
came times when we were very sober, staid,
and circumspect; but we could not resist the
exhilarating air of the hill-regions through
which we passed, or the genial sunshine, or the
smell of the flowers, or the cheery hail of boat-
men and passengers whom we met along the
moist way. We soon learned the construction of
the locks, and how it was that our boat ran
into the large basin and waited till that was
filled or emptied, as the case might demand,
in order to get us on the level required; and
after the novelty of that was over, we often
ran ahead on the tow-path, accompanied by
one of our "seeing" teachers, and had a nice
little bit of exercise before our steady-going
craft overtook us.
We stopped at all towns of any size on the
way, such as Schenectady, Rome, Utica, Syra-
cuse, Rochester, as well as many others, and
gave entertainments. I may say, without ex-
aggeration, that these affairs were the events
of the evening, if not of the week and month,
in the vicinity where we appeared.
The Mayor would generally preside; and
give us as fine a speech of welcome as he had
time to prepare. The Common Council, or
Board of Aldermen, and other distinguished
people, were very likely also to sit upon the
platform; while hundreds if not thousands of
the citizen-rank-and-file were down in front.
What with our singing, addresses, descrip-
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tions of our school, recitations, and such ora-
torical and musical help as we managed to
borrow from local talent, we flattered ourselves
that we made a pretty good "show", as we
used playfully to call it; and we were always
overwhelmed with praises, and invitations to
"come again."
Besides this, we generally netted a snug
little sum for the Institution: although the
main object of the excursion was the rousing
of public interest in our educational work.
After a day or two of rest in a town, meet-
ing kind friends, partaking of splendid hospi-
tality, encouraging sightless people who heard
of and came to us from all directions — ^we
would set sail again, and start for the next
"stand" — delighted to get back again to our
dear old canal-boat — containing, as Dr.
Holmes used to say, "many of the pleasures
of navigation, with none of its perils."
And so we went on and on — till at last Buf-
falo was reached, and after arriving there we
were not long in making a pilgrimage to the
great Niagara Falls.
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CHAPTER XIII.— 1843.
NIAGARA FALLS VISITED — ^WHAT THE BLIND
STUDENTS "saw" OF IT — TABLE ROCK —
STANDING UPON GOAT ISLAND — THE POOR
OLD ANIMAL FOR WHICH IT WAS NAMED
STORIES OF THE "OLDEST INHABITANTS" —
TELLING ABOUT IT TO THOSE WHO "cOULDN't
GO."
WHEN our canal-party had left its
boat-home and extended its pil-
grimage to the great Niagara
Falls, we felt as if one of the great
days of our life had come.
"But what could you see of the Falls ?" some
one asks. Much more than you would sup-
pose, dear friend ! Seeing is not all done with
the optical organs.
Besides, we had in our school learned all
about this gigantic plunge of four great lakes
one hundred and sixty-four feet, into the rocky
gulfs below; we had seen it over and over
again with our imaginations ; and knew well
what was going on (or, rather, off) before us.
As we stood upon Goat Island, and one of
our teachers described the Horseshoe Falls
and other famous localities in his view, I could
almost fancy I heard the morning stars singing
together, and the sons of God shouting for joy !
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I could imagine those great rocks that had
stood for ages, while the river-billows went
sweeping over them night and day, summer
and winter, through century after century.
I could at that time perceive enough of light
and color (although as ever unable to distin-
guish objects), to appreciate somewhat the
opulence of hue that leaped and flowed around
us ; though of late years, even that power has
departed from me, and if I should stand upon
the borders of that great tossing precipice to-
day, even in the midst of the most brilliant
sunshine, I could not get even a fragment of
the wonderful chromatic feast.
But I could still hear the trumpet-voice of
this king of cataracts, proclaiming the power
of the Almighty hand; I could feel the
fresh breezes that spring from the bosom oi
the whirling waters ; I could (sweetest thought
of all) enjoy the enjoyment of my friends who
could see, and listen to their animated descrip-
tions.
Indeed, I sometimes think that blind people
see more than their friends who have the power
of vision: for they get descriptions from vari-
ous points of view, that it is not considered
necessary to give to those who can look for
themselves.
We wandered all about the different locali-
ties, and had everything described to us, until
we felt as if we knew the place by heart. We
stood upon the great Table Rock — then one of
the principal curiosities of the "Falls", but now
fallen from its high estate into the gulf below ;
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we lingered by the whirlpool, and imagined
ourselves drawn into that mighty vortex. We
walked up and down through the streets of
the little village, and wondered what our sen-
sations would be if we lived there with that
continual peal of thunder in our ears.
Many and interesting incidents were related
to us by "the oldest inhabitants" — all of whom,
alas! are now in the grave — with the mam-
moth cataract singing their requiem.
Among the other things told us, was the
way "Goat Island" happened to be named. It
was after one poor old animal that belonged
to a Mr. John Stedman, as long ago as 1779-
He placed the poor old fellow there in liie
summer of that year, and left him alone for a
while when autumn came, intending to row
over and get him (there was no bridge then)
"before snow flew." But, alas, for the poor
goat! — ^winter set in early that year, naviga-
tion to and from the main shore was impos-
sible, and the animal died of starvation or
exposure— taking his pay for the sacrifice in
giving his name, or the name of his species,
for centuries to come, to the world-renowned
island. It has been given other titles tem-
porarily, and was very prettily marked on one
of the maps, "Iris Island"; but people gener-
ally have always been loyal to the poor old
quadruped who died there in the winter of
1779-80, and continue to call it Goat Island.
They told us so many stories of accidents,
rescues, suicides, and other incidents almost as
wonderful as the Falls themselves, that we
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were well-nigh bewildered ; and it took many
weeks of our quiet and systematic school-life
in New York to straighten everything out in
our minds. It required much longer for us to
satisfy all the curiosity of those of our school-
mates who had not been so fortunate as to go
with us. There was no envy expressed — only
delight that we were able to enjoy so much,
and genuine pleasure that they could partici-
pate, even if indirectly, in the pleasures of the
trip.
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CHAPTER XIV.— 1844-1847.
OFF TO THE NATIONAL CAPITAL AND CAPITOL —
BEFORE THE SENATE AND HOUSE OF REPRE-
SENTATIVES MEET AND HEAR JOHN QUINCY
ADAMS — ^JAMES BUCHANAN — ^ANDREW JOHN-
SON — STEPHEN A. DOUGLAS WILLIAM L.
DAYTON — ^JOHN P. HALE — RUFUS CHOATE —
R. H. BAYARD — ROBERT J. WALKER — OTHER
FAMOUS MEN IN THE AUDIENCE.
IN January, 1844, a party of us went to
Washington, in order to awaken public
attention in favor of the blind. We were
asked to appear before the Senate and
House of Representatives gathered in joint
session : and here, in a poetical address which
I was invited to give them, I had one of the
most distinguished audiences of my life.
You may well imagine that it was with some
trepidation that a young woman still in her
twenties, appeared before Congress : I have
been told that I was the first and last poet ever
invited to speak, or to recite his or her own
productions before the great National Assem-
bly. But I nerved myself to the task, and did
as well as I could ; and had the pleasure of re-
ceiving an enthusiastic encore.
Greatest of all who were present on that
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day, was John Quincy Adams. He was sev-
enty-six years old, and had nearly all his life
occupied some prominent office in the service
of our country. He had been President of
United States eighteen years before; and was
now in his old age winning new laurels as a
most worthy Representative in the Lower
House of Congress.
During our stay in Washington I had the
pleasure of hearing his speech on the subject
of the Smithsonian Institute, and had the pleas-
ure of a friendly greeting from him, and a
clasp of his hand.
There was also a man in the audience whose
father had emigrated from Ireland seventy-
one years before, and whose mother was the
daughter of a Pennsylvania farmer. This man
liad worked his way up, through various offi-
ces, until he was now United States Senator;
and sixteen years afterwards he was elected
President. His name was James Buchanan.
There was one comparatively young man,
thirty-nine years of age: who had already
commenced a unique career. As a tailor's
apprentice, unable to read or write, he
had sat upon his bench, sewing up seams,
while listening to books read aloud by a gen-
tleman who used to come into the shop and
read, in order to improve the minds of the
workmen: and among the selections, some
public speeches were reproduced, which had
fired the young man's natural talent. He be-
came ambitious, learned to read, and, marry-
ing before he was of age, was taught to write,
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by his wife. He had been elected alderman
of the little Tennessee town in which he set-
tled, then mayor, then was sent to the legis-
lahire, and finally to Congress.
rhis tailor's apprentice-boy, Andrew John-
son, was yet to be a United States senator, a
governor of his state, a vice-president, and
finally by the death of the great Lincoln, Presi-
dent of United States. After a stormy admin-
istration, he was to retire to his home in Ten-
nessee, to be sent to Washington once more as
United States senator, and to die before he had
fully entered upon his new political career.
There was also Hannibal Hamlin, who, only
thirteen years afterwards, was to be elected
Vice-President on the same ticket that gave
the Presidency to Lincoln ; and who, after that
term expired, lived many years in public life.
Stephen A. Douglas was also present. He
was then thirty-one years old, being ■ onlv
forty-eight when he died, just after his defeat
by Abraham Lincoln, in his canvass for the
Presidency. His career was already a most
promising one, and "The Little Giant", as he
was called, was even then making his mark.
William L. Dayton, of New Jersey, was
there: he was to run in 1856 for the Vice-
Presidency, and be defeated, as was the head
of the Republican ticket, John C. Fremont.
John P. Hale, of New Hampshire, who in
1852 ran for the Presidency on the Free Soil
ticket, was also present on this occasion, being
then a member of the Lower House of Con-
gress.
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Rufus Choate, the celebrated lawyer, was
also there, serving out the unexpired term of
Daniel Webster, who died soon after its be-
ginning. Mr. Choate, it is said, did not feel
at home in Congress, and was at his best when
pleading at the bar.
Others who had at that time gained some
prominence, and who afterwards achieved na-
tional and in some cases international renown,
were R. H. Bayard, a Senator from Delaware ;
Robert J. Walker, from Mississippi; John J.
Crittenden, of Kentucky, and Thomas H.
Benton ("Old Bullion"), of Missouri.
There were in the House-portion of my au-
dience, besides those already mentioned, Rob-
ert C. Winthrop, of Massachusetts ; Hamilton
Fish and Preston King, of New York; Henry
A. Wise, of Virginia; Howell Cobb, of
Georgia; John Slidell, of Louisiana; Robert
Dale Owen, of Indiana, and "Long John"
Wentworth, of Illinois.
Little did I think that there also sat before
me, a man who was one day to be President
of a Southern Confederacy, and one of the
principal figures in a titanic war between the
North and South. This was Jefferson Davis,
only three months older than Johnson, and
destined to live four years longer than he —
dying in 1879.
There also sat before me, and did me the
honor of listening, Alexander Stephens —
thirty-five years old, who was destined to be
Vice-President of the Confederacy, of which
Jefferson Davis was President.
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There were also in the audience that day,
Joshua R. Giddings, a prominent Pennsyl-
vania statesman ; R. M. T. Hunter, of Virginia ;
William L. Yancey, of Alabama; Robert
Toombs, of Georgia; and others who have
since become more or less famous.
Added to these, were many others, perhaps
equal to their more fortunate brothers who
achieved celebrity, but who were debarred
from it, maybe by circumstances beyond their
control, or that of any one except Him who
holds the failure and success of humanity
within His all-powerful hand.
In April, 1847, we went to Washington
again, and I once more had the privilege of
appearing before Congress. Among the
auditors on that occasion, were most of those
above-mentioned, and in addition were several
others who have since achieved additional
fame.
While I could not see these brilliant men,
1 could feel their kindness, their appreciation,
and their sympathy ; I was introduced to many
of them, and have followed with interest their
course through life.
I naturally many times think about them,
although now most if not all of them are dead
and gone, and wonder how they could have
been so kind as to listen to a young woman in
her twenties, and to treat her with so much
consideration. They were all intensely ambi-
tious, although, mostly, obscure; and in the
midst of their strenuous public life, they
showed, by this considerate treatment of their
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blind visitors, that "one touch of nature makes
the whole world kin."
While in Washington we visited a great
many historical places, and felt the thrill of the
great deeds that had been performed there. If
we could not see with the eye those objects of
interest, we could with the imagination : which,
like other faculties, grows stronger the more
it is used.
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CHAPTER XV.— 1844-1897.
COLLECT POEMS AND PUBLISH A BOOK "tHE
BLIND GIRL AND OTHER POEMS" MY "DE-
CLINING health" — DELIVERING A POEM BE-
FORE THE NEW JERSEY LEGISLATURE — ^AN-
OTHER VOLUME, "MONTEREY AND OTHER
poems" — MY "declining YEARS" FIFTY-TWO
YEARS AGO — STILL ANOTHER BOOK, "a
WREATH OF COLUMBIA'S FLOWERS" PROSE
STORIES — "bells AT EVENING."
IN 1844, I was induced to collect a number
of my poems, for the purpose of publish-
ing them in a volume.
The idea seemed to me at first pre-
sumptuous ! — the thought of being styled an
"author" was almost too much for my nerves.
But after awhile, the matter was arranged —
partly in spite of me, and partly in accordance
with my gradually growing desires : and the
book was finally published, by the firm of
Wiley & Putnam, who then occupied offices
at 161 Broadway.
The name of this book, which contained 160
pages — exactly the same number as this
story of my life — was mentioned, on the title-
page, as "The Blind Girl and Other Poems :
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By Frances Jane Crosby, a Pupil at the New
York Institution for the Blind." (It will be
noticed that my original name, Frances Jane,
was soon modified into the more diminu-
tive and more easily wielded one, of Fanny.)
Upon the title-page were these lines from
Milton :
" — who best
Bears his mild yoke, they serve him best; his
state
Is kingly."
The Preface was written by Hamilton Mur-
ray, a good friend of mine, mentioned else-
where in this book, and bespoke in eloquent
terms the favor of a discriminating public. It
traced my career thus far, such as it was,
vouched for the fact that all the compositions
were "the unaided productions ol the author-
ess", apologized for some peculiarities of
punctuation which might, it thought, have
served the purpose better if I could only have
seen, so as to attend to it myself — and
stated that my "declining health" rendered its
financial avails all the more important. So
strange are the decrees of the Master of the
Universe! — I have outlived my good friend
for thirty-five years, and, although then in
delicate health, do not consider myself so at
present.
After a dedication in rhyme to the officers
of the Institution, the first poem was the one
that gave its title to the book — "The Blind
Girl." It commenced with the following lines,
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which were to some extent descriptive of my
own birthplace,
"Her home was near an ancient wood,
Where many an oak gigantic stood.
And fragrant flowers of lovely hue
In that sequestered valley grew" ;
and went on for several lines to picture that
little home, as well as I could do it with my
imagination. The heroine of the poem was
"Anna"; she lost her mother at an early age,
and, in addition to the physical affliction that
had fallen upon her, a mental blindness gradu-
ally came. Just as she was yielding to despair,
a stranger appeared, who conducted her to our
"home erected for the blind" — where she, hap-
pily, received "Education's glorious light."
This poem was suggested by an incident
that occurred while we were upon one of our
trips to the interior of New York State.
The next poem was "The Rise and Pro-
gress of the New York Institution for the
Blind", and contained a short history of its
career. Then followed "Dedication of the
Chapel", then an "Address", delivered to the
Senate of New York, upon the occasion of its
visiting our Institution; and then "The Blind
Girl's Lament", and "The Desolate."
My next poem in the book was of a patriotic
nature, and was "To the Heroes of Bunker
Hill." Then followed "Reflections on the Clos-
ing year" (1843), "The Captive", "Thoughts
at Midnight", etc., etc.
My first hymn was published in this book.
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It was entitled "An Evening Hymn", and is
printed on another page.
There was also one that had been deliv-
ered before the Governor, Council, and As-
sembly of the State of New Jersey, Jan. 29,
1844; and two that were recited at several ex-
hibitions on our tours in August, 1842.
In 185 1, another volume was published —
this one by R. Craighead, of 1 12 Fulton Street.
It was entitled "Monterey and Other Poems",
and had for its motto these lines from Milton :
"As the wakeful bird
Sings darkUng, and in shadiest covert hid
Tunes her nocturnal note."
This motto, it may be needless to say, was
selected by one of my friends, and not my-
self. In the Preface of this book I spoke of
my continued bad health, and my "declining
years" : little thinking that I would be issuing
my autobiography a little matter of fifty-two
years afterward. I was under a feeling of sad-
ness and depression at this time, but, happily,
the good Lord at last gave me the power to
shake it off and commence life with new zest
and courage.
This book had in it somq of the echoes of
the war between United States and Mexico,
which had recently been in progress. It con-
tained, besides the initial poem, lines on the
death of Maj. Ringgold, Col. Clay, and Gen.
Taylor, who had been elevated to the Presi-
dency on account of his being one of the
heroes of this same Mexican War.
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Other Poems.
In 1858 came another book, "A Wreath of
Columbia's Flowers" — published by H. Day-
ton, at 107 Nassau Street.
This work was partly in prose : commencing
with a story, "The Mountain Chief; or, the
Home of Medora." "Annie Herbert" was an-
other; "Philip Synclare; or, the Traitor's Re-
ward", and "Magerie; or, the Sibyl of the
Revolution" were additional ones.
These books all had a good sale, but are
now out of print.
In 1897, appeared "Bells at Evening and
Other Verses", with a short biographical sketch
by Rev. Robert Lowry, the famous composer.
This book was issued for me, by the Biglow
& Main Company, New York : who have also
published many of my hymns, and with whom I
have maintained most cordial and even affec-
tionate relations, for many years past.
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CHAPTER XVI.— 1844-1902.
A NEW CHARGE A PROMISING STUDENT HIS
CAREER IN SCHOOL MARRIAGE SYMPATHY
IN PROFESSIONAL WORK — CHARACTERISTICS
OF MY HUSBAND HIS MANY GOOD QUALI-
TIES — HIS DEATH.
WHEN we were at Oswego, upon the
canal-trip mentioned in a previous
chapter, a lady came to us, bring-
ing a blind boy, just about to enter
the years of manhood. I little thought, then,
that my destiny would be indissolubly linked
with his own.
His name was Alexander Van Alstyne. The
mother appealed to me in particular, as I was
one of the teachers, although, it must be con-
fessed, young for such a position, and asked
me to take her "boy" especially under my per-
sonal charge, and see that no harm came to
him.
I consented, perhaps rather thoughtlessly:
but the responsibility was fated to have more
important results than I supposed.
He entered the Institution in 1844, and was
in several of my classes during the four years
he remained with us. In 1848 he graduated,
and then went to Union College, Schenectady,
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Congeniality with Htisband.
where he studied Greek, Latin, and Theology.
Although he became well grounded in gen-
eral studies, and, indeed, distinguished himself
by his scholarship, his natural profession was
Music, and he became a most accomplished
performer, teacher, and composer — being fully
conversant with the works of the old masters.
He felt that all the mental disciphne that he
could procure in general studies, would en-
rich his mind, and enable him to succeed bet-
ter in his own vocation: and results proved
the truth of that theory.
In 1855, he came back to our Institution for
the Blind, and for two years was a teacher
there, and in 1858, we were married.
We found in each other not only perfect
congeniality, but sympathy in our pursuits :
neither of us interfered with the other's pro-
fessional career. Each of us (as is not always
the case) could sympathize with the other's
occupation, without rivalry or interference. He
set several of my hymns to music : but his taste
was mostly for the wordless melodies of the
classics. He insisted that my literary name
should remain as it was : I yielded to his desire,
and although really Mrs. Van Alstyne, have
always written under the name of Fanny
Crosby, except when using soubriquets.
His father, Wells Van Alstyne, came from
the banks of the Rhine, while still young, bring-
ing his wife with him. He was an engineer
by profession, and bore a prominent part in
the construction of the Welland Canal.
For many years my husband taught music,
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and proved himself a brilliant instructor. He
was proficient upon the piano and the cornet
—and long occupied the position of organist
in one of the city churches of New York.
He was not only a musician, but a philoso-
pher, and a deep student of human nature. He
delighted in bringing out latent musical tal-
ent, wherever he could find it. He often
taught pupils free, in cases where they were
not able to pay.
"Van", as everybody who knew him affec-
tionately called him, was always an inspiration
in any company in which he was present,
with his ready wit, his winning magnetism, and
his cheery ways. It has been told me by those
who could see, that when he was at the organ
or piano, his face bore the happiest expression
of any they had ever witnessed in like circum-
stances. He had his faults — and so have I mine
— and as I suppose have all of us frail mortals :
but notwithstanding these, we loved each other
to the last. We were long spared bereave-
ment: but he was taken sick in 1901, with
asthma, and after a long illness, died on June
i8th, 1902, of a complication of diseases.
He was buried in Brooklyn, not far from
where we first established our little home, soon
after marriage: and there, though I cannot
see the mound under which he rests, I can
touch the turf with my hands, and try to make
his spirit feel that I am constantly lamenting
his temporary loss.
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CHAPTER XVII.— 1845.
THE BLIND NOT SO EASILY DECEIVED — WAYS TO
ASCERTAIN WHAT IS "GOING ON" — LOVE-MAK-
ING BEFORE THE BLIND NOT ALWAYS SAFE — -
WIRELESS TELEGRAPHY OF THE MIND, HEART,
AND SOUL — THE BLIND CHILD FROM NEW
JERSEY — GRIEVES FOR HIS GRANDMOTHER
— ACTING THE PART OF THE GOOD OLD LADY
— THE LITTLE BOY HAPPY.
ALTHOUGH they cannot see what is go-
ing on around them, yet the bhnd are
not by any means so easily duped,
as many suppose : for there are numer-
ous ways in which they can know what is "do-
ing", almost as well as if they could witness
it with good eyes, under the clear light of a
noonday sun. Little by-plays often take place
near me, the existence of which I am not sup-
posed to know : but of which, in almost every
detail, I am fully aware.
Even surreptitious love-making has been
attempted in my presence, the parties trusting
to my physical blindness to serve as a wall
with which to hide themselves : but I have
been able, a few times, to laughingly inform
these amiable but misguided people, that I was,
really, an involuntary spectator of their actions.
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Tht.e are many ways in which we perceive.
Sound, for instance, has delicate modifications
and variations, that no one who has no oppor-
tunity for making a study of them would sus-
pect. Slight jarrings, and the sudden changing
of currents of air, all have their effect upon
most blind people.
Then there is that indescribable wireless
telegraphy of the mind, heart, and soul — of
which every one has more or less — ^whether
perceived and utilized or not: and this the
blind generally cultivate and employ to its ut-
most capacity.
Sometimes, however, especially with the
very young, a certain amount of deceit can be
successfully practiced. Occasionally it is for
their own good, as in the following case :
In 1845, ^ little blind boy, six years old, was
sent to us from a New Jersey town. Coming
from a home where he had naturally been
petted by every member of the family, into
strange and more austere surroundings, he
was of course sad and homesick, and cried all
day and all night — ^when he was awake — for his
old home and those whom he knew and loved
there.
The Superintendent informed me, one day,
that we should probably have to send him back
again. "He keeps calling all the time for
those he has left behind him, and especially for
his grandmother. If the good lady could come
once a week, or so, and talk with him a while,
it would no doubt make him contented : but she
writes that she is unable to do so,"
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Playing Grandmother.
It occurred to me that a little harmless de-
ception would not be out of place here: and
I made up my mind to act the part of grand-
mother, and visit the poor little fellow two or
three times per week. I wrote to the good old
lady, told her the circumstances, and what I
wished to do, and asked her for all the infor-
mation that she could give me, which would
help in the impersonating.
She willingly responded, and, although only
twenty-five years of age, I carefully "made
up", in voice, manner, and conversational ma-
terial, for the part of a grandmother of his own
flesh and blood.
The next time I heard him calling for her,
1 rushed into the room, and exclaimed, "My
dear little boy. Grandma has come ! She want-
ed to see you so bad, she couldn't stay away
another minute!"
"O Grandma, Grandma, Grandma!" the
poor little fellow shouted, rushing into my
arms, sobbing, meanwhile, with joy. "I
thought you would never come!" He kissed
me affectionately, not noticing, in his haste,
the eradication of sundry wrinkles that he
must have left on the dear old lady's face when
he came away from home; and as soon as he
was calm, he made an elaborate series of in-
quiries that put my memory and ingenuity to
the fullest test. Not only the human friends
and relatives, but every hen and chicken that
he had left on the home-farm, had to be ac-
counted-for. The recent behavior of several
lambs, cats, a dog, etc., for all of which he
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had names, was subjected to strict and
diligent inquiry ; and, aided by the long letters
that I had received, I was able to give consid-
erable information, on a variety of subjects.
When he and I had both become a little
tired, I said, gently, "Now Grandma must go :
but she will come back again, very soon."
The little fellow was perfectly happy over
the visit, and slept beautifully that night —
dreaming, no doubt, of his dear old home and
the loved ones there.
I kept up the little masquerade for about
three months, and then gradually "tapered
off" — finally ceasing the visits altogether: a
Christmas box from home made a pretty good
substitute for one visit, and he was soon be-
coming acquainted with his surroundings, and
losing his loneliness.
I told him all about it, years afterward, when
he had become a fine teacher, and one of the
best grammarians that I have ever known : and
he laughed over it with me, and thanked me
for the bit of strategy with which we had man-
aged to make him contented. "Otherwise,
they might have had to send me back", he
remarked : "and then I should probably have
lost mv education."
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CHAPTER XVIII.— 1846-1849.
A TERRIBLE CLOUD IN THE EAST — THE DREAD
SPECTRE OF CHOLERA IN THE DISTANCE IT
STARTS FROM INDIA — MAKES ITS WAY WEST-
WARD — REACHES NEW YORK AND OTHER
AMERICAN CITIES — VACATION SPENT AMONG
THE PATIENTS — "GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF
US, EITHER IN THIS WORLD OR THE NEXT"—
MAKING MEDICINE— HAVE THE PREMONITORY
SYMPTOMS OF THE DISEASE STUMBLING
OVER COFFINS IN THE HALLS END OF THE
HORRORS.
TOWARD the latter part of 1846, there
came ominous news to our Institution
— indicating that a great danger hung
above us, and was soon to fall. We
were no more alive to apprehension, in gen-
eral matters, than were "seeing" people : but
it must be admitted that this news cast a
very sober feeling over our little band of stu-
dents.
The dread epidemic of Cholera was coming!
There seemed no way to stop it, when it once
started on the warpath : medical methods at
that time were largely inadequate.
The disease is now better understood and
more easily fought, than in those days : Sci-
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ence has made many long and profitable
marches since then, and brought back among
its trophies the means of stamping it out or
warding it off.
But in 1846, things were different, and it
was as good as known that the dread spectre
had started westward from the pestilence-
laden streets and jungles of India, and that it
was only a question of a little time when it
would reach American shores.
We were not long in studying up every-
thing that could be learned on the subject:
those who read to us never had more atten-
tive listeners than at that time. We learned
that in 1817, when the eyes of physicians were
first turned toward this disease, the frightened
inhabitants of India were calling it "Mordechie"
— Arabic for "Death-blow" — ^which suffi-
ciently indicated its terrible character. It was
said to have "originated" in a little town
named Jessore, about seventy miles northeast
of Calcutta: but that was, no doubt, merely
where the epidemic of 1846-49 was first dis-
covered.
The disease had existed for ages, in one
place and another, and even a great Roman
philosophical and medical writer named Cel-
sus, who lived in the time of the emperor Au-
gustus, made mention of it — or of something
very much like it.
So the little town of Jessore may be termed
merely the place where the terrible disease
gathered its hosts, before starting out to over-
run the world on this particular campaign.
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Rapid Spread of the Cholera.
In the early part of 1846, it descended upon
Teheran, in Persia, and killed 2o,o<X) people
before it left the place. Sometimes it would
poison one's blood all at once, and life would
be extinct in a few hours. The disease went
all over India, killed 6,380 British soldiers, as
well as unnumbered hosts of natives, and,
finally, itself an army of invasion, it drew up
its lines of attack, and advanced into Europe.
By August, 1848, it was at Berlin, and about
the close of September it reached that great
camp of "all sorts and conditions" of people —
London. Before it left England, it had taken
over 70,000 lives.
It is needless to say that all these facts were
watched with breathless anxiety, by the people
in New York. Of course there were no
cables in that day, or even any "ocean gray-
hounds" : but numerous packet-ships and some
slow steamers were constantly sailing back
and forth, and news had facilities of travel, of
which it did not fail to take full advantage.
It is a problem, and, no doubt, always will
be, among physicians, and other scientists, as
to how much the matter of fear has to do with
the incurring of epidemic diseases, but one
thing is certain: New York and its kindred
American cities stood, for months, in dread of
the terrible visitation, and tremblingly expect-
ed it from day to day; and, so to speak, were
all ready to take it when it came.
As for the teachers and students in the In-
stitution for the Blind, we of course had our
fears : but we were taught that the same good
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Friend above, that had been so merciful thus
far, would not desert us now ; that He would
do all things best for us, both in this world and
the next. We rested secure in His promise
that we should all be held in the hollow of His
hand. And so we prayed — and waited.
We had not long to wait ! On the first of
December, 1848, the packet-ship "New York"
landed at Staten Island. She was from Havre,
and brought with her several persons who
were sufifering from cholera. Soon three
deaths occurred in our city, and the dread dis-
ease was fighting the preliminary skirmish of
its conquering march.
Everything possible in those days was done
to keep the contagion down, and stamp it out ;
and for several months it looked as if this
might be accomplished. But we were attacked
from other directions.
On the nth of December, an emigrant-ship
arrived at New Orleans — shaving also come
from Havre, leaving a few days before the
"New YorK"; and this vessel, upon sailing
into port, had already buried at sea seventeen
who died of cholera. It was thought, at first,
that there were no more cases on board, and
the queen city of the South congratulated
itself on having escaped.
But one poor sick woman, having been sent
to the Charity Hospital, was soon found to
be afflicted with the terrible disease ; and in a
few days it spread all over New Orleans —
causing 3,500 deaths.
This thriving city of the South was then a
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great center of travel: sailing-vessels, flat-
boats, and steamers, were constantly leaving,
in all directions. Frequently after a steam-
boat started up the river, there would be dis-
covered upon her, several cases of cholera:
and these would be hustled ashore at the first
convenient landing, and left to the care of the
hospitals, or of the people generally.
It soon reached Memphis, then St. Louis,
then Cincinnati, Chicago, etc., and on the
nth of May, 1849, New York had to ac-
knowledge that the terrible pestilence was at
last with her to stay for a time, having ob-
tained a firm foothold within her streets. Be-
fore the month was out, Albany, Philadelphia,
and Boston were all similarly afflicted ; and
soon a reign of terror was at hand.
Our summer vacation began unusually
early, that year, and the students were sent to
their homes as soon as possible: but several
stayed long enough to suffer from the scourge.
Some of us remained all summer, from choice :
being convinced that God would take care of
us, and that we could be of some help. Our
faithful nurse, who had always been so kind
whenever we were ailing, refused to leave her
post; and we felt that we could afford to run
ec|ual risks with her.
I never shall forget the terrors of that sum-
mer, in which there were, during six months,
over 5,000 deaths in New York City alone.
The harsh cry of the truckman, "Bring out
your dead !" sometimes rings in my ears to this
day.
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Our Institution furnished some of these:
several sickened and died almost before we
could raise a hand to help them. Often the
vital power seemed to ebb all at once, as soon
as the victim was attacked. If we could get
our patients into a state of perspiration, there
was hope ; and we used to rub them vigorously
with salt in order to accomplish this.
Dr. J. W. Clements, who was our physician
at that time, was often busy making "cholera
pills" — and many a time I assisted him in their
manufacture. They were of two-thirds calo-
mel, and one-third opium — rather a "strenu-
ous" sort of medicine for these days, it would
be considered: but the necessity at that time
seemed to justify the means.
One morning, I was quite sure that the
dread disease had come upon me: indeed, I
really had the premonitory symptoms. But
I was bound that I would not yield to them:
and the amount of calomel and opium that
went into my stomach during those few hours,
appals me as I think of it now.
AH day long I kept exercising, as briskly
and vigorously as I could; and when six
o'clock came, I went to bed and to sleep, after
having prayed to the great Physician of all,
to watch over my slumber, and do with me as
seemed best to Him.
In the morning, after a good night's rest,
I awoke, as well as ever: and did not have
any more trouble of that kind.
But the horrors of the situation grew upon
us day by day. When patients died, they
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were removed as quietly as possible : but I re-
member my fright at sometimes stumbling
over coffins in the halls, on my way from room
to room.
When November came, the epidemic ceased ;
and our school went on as usual. As above
stated, several had died from among our num-
ber, and we mourned them long and deeply ;
but not without the reflection that they were in
God's hands, and that He had His own wise
purpose in taking them to Himself.
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CHAPTER XIX.— 1847.
ASKED TO WRITE POEMS ON ALL SORTS OF
SUBJECTS A DIRGE FOR DANIEL WEBSTER BE-
FORE HE WAS DEAD DEATH OF HENRY CLAY'S
SON — POEM UPON THE SAME — THE GREAT
STATESMAN VISITS OUR INSTITUTION HIS
PATHETIC ACTIONS AND WORDS.
ANOTHER disadvantage attendant upon
my position as a kind of poet laureate
of the Institution, was the fact that I
was expected, whenever anything un-
usual happened, to embalm the event in rhyme
and measure. I may say, too, that not only the
important events, but some of the most trivial
of subjects, have from time to time been offered
me as themes for my humble muse. People
do not always stop to reflect that a poem is
not an anecdote, or a table of statistics; and
that an incident so near and interesting to them
that they consider it worthy an epic, might be
almost ridiculous to the world at large, if set
in rhyme.
But there was and is no lack of events well
worthy any poet's best endeavor, and I
found them frequently.
I remember one evening, as I was going
through the street, with a party of friends, we
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heard newsboys proclaiming the death of
Daniel Webster, and oifering papers for sale
with full accounts of the melancholy event.
"You must write a poem on the subject at
once, Fanny," every one said, "while the in-
spiration of the sad event is on."
I went to my room, and began the mournful
but (to me) interesting task. I remember com-
mencing as follows :
"A casket has broken — a jewel has fled —
The mighty has fallen — the peerless is dead !
And the heart of the nation is bleeding once
more,
For her eagle lies low on her desolate shore !"
I was just repeating this stanza over to my
friends, so as to gather from it inspiration for
the next, when a gentleman, who had come
into the room in time to hear it, exclaimed,
"O Fanny ! Fanny ! the heart of the nation isn't
bleeding, or the casket broken, or the eagle
lying dead on the desolate shore ! That news
was all a 'get-up' to sell papers : Webster
isn't dead ! Don't let the poem go on any far-
ther : you might kill him yet 1"
I was personally glad to know that the great
expounder of the Constitution "still lived";
but must say that my "muse" was a little dis-
appointed, at having plumed herself for flight,
and been ruthlessly brought down to earth
again by Mr. Webster's oversight in not dying.
On the 23d of February, 1847, Henry Clay,
Jr., a brave son of the magnificent statesman
and orator, was killed while fighting in the
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Battle of Buena Vista, in the Mexican war. I
wrote a poem on this event, and, with help of
friends, summoned courage to mail it to the
afflicted father.
The lines, which I quote from memory, were
as follows :
ON THE DEATH OF COL. CLAY.
Lo on the blood-stained battle-field,
A wounded hero lying;
Dim is the lustre of his eye.
For he, alas ! is dying !
See, how with feeble hands he grasps
The sword, so faithful ever!
Now drops the weapon from his side,
To be resumed — no, never!
O gallant Clay! — though for thy brow
Its laurels Fame is weaving,
Vain trophies these ! — thy bosom now
Its last faint sigh is heaving.
Back, tyrants ! — would ye deeper make
The wounds already given?
You, from an aged father's heart.
Another tie have riven.
Intrepid warrior ! — thou has left
A deathless name behind thee :
That name, unsullied, bright shall shine.
Though the dark grave may find thee !
Thou by thy General's side hast fought ;
And Taylor will deplore thee.
And many a heart that loved thee dear,
Will weep in silence o'er thee.
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It was only a short time afterward that
Henry Clay visited New York, and, among
other places, came to our school. He was now
seventy years of age ; and might easily be called
one of the grandest old men of whom the coun-
try could boast. He had been in public life
almost continuously for forty-three years ; only
three years before, he had been nominated for
the Presidency, and although defeated, it w'"=
believed the Whigs would name him again for
the ensuing canvass. Zachary Taylor finally
received that nomination and election, and
went to Washington and to death; but Clay
was re-elected United States senator in the
year following that, and so continued for the
remainder of his life.
Of course, we were all very much flustered
and "put about" at the coming of this great
orator — rivalled only by Webster in his silver-
tongued eloquence. We had our own band of
music, containing twenty pieces ; and it met
him with a burst of instrumental melody.
Mr. Clay made us one of the finest addresses
we had ever heard. His voice was sweet and
gentle, and sympathetic in tone — qualities
valued and appreciated very highly, by the
blind. I remember feeling that no one of sen-
sibility could stay in his presence very long,
without being powerfully influenced by its
magnetism.
He mentioned the different things he had
seen on a late tour through the country — a
journey that had to be made mostly by steam-
ers and horse-coaches — ^vastly different from
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the lightning progress made by politicians
nowadays, in their tours through the country.
He related several pleasant incidents that
occurred during the journey, and said none
had been more enjoyable than the present. It
was a luxury to him, he remarked, to see so
many of us there, who, although the good Lord
had thought fit to deprive us of our sight,
were still so comfortable and so happy.
At the conclusion of this part of his speech, I
heard him coming back on the platform to
where I sat, and felt him take my arm. I had
half hoped that he had forgotten the poem 1
sent him, although it was my heartfelt wish
that it might give him some little comfort in
his terrible afHiction; but it was evidently not
in his nature to forget anything kindly meant.
He gently drew me toward the front of the
stage, and said to the audience: "My friends,
this is not the first time I have felt the com-
forting presence of this young friend, although
I never saw her before. Into the deep wound
of my sorrow, she poured the balm of consola-
tion."
He continued to hold my arm while he
talked on, in the same strain, for what seemed,
to poor, shrinking me, a full hour, although it
was not really more than ten minutes. I could
not control my feelings, and we actually stood
there and wept together.
Only five years more, and the great Ken-
tucky orator was to rejoin the son whom he
loved so fervently and lamented so deeply.
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CHAPTER XX.— 1848.
GENERAL SCOTT VISITS US "a PORTION OF THE
country's history" — HIS POLITENESS AND
CHIVALRY "war IS HELL" IN A MANNER
ANTEDATED — CAPTURING GENERAL SCOTT
WITH HIS OWN SWORD — "WAITING FOR THE
NEXT PRESIDENT" — ^JAMES K. POLK VISITS US
HIS ANCESTRY DESERTING HIM TO GREET
A SERVANT HIS KINDNESS AND CONSIDER-
ATION.
IN 1848, General Winfield Scott came to
see us. He was said to be a magnificent
looking man — over six feet in height,
and well proportioned ; and at sixty-two,
was in the fulness of his fame ; for he had, only
a few months before, entered the City of Mex-
ico in triumph.
His career had been so splendid that we felt
as if a portion of the country's history were
about to walk in upon us.
He had commenced life at Petersburg, Va.,
which afterwards became historical in Grant's
memorable siege ; he had practiced law at twen-
ty-two, become tired of it at twenty-four, en-
tered the army as a captain of light artillery,
and remained in it ever since. He had been
one of the heroes of 1812, and was the most
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prominent figure of the Mexican War, which
had just closed.
The General arrived a little earlier than the
hour named for his reception, and I was sent
down to the parlor to entertain him during the
time he was waiting. I did not flatter myself
that anything I might say would be of very
much interest to so distinguished a man — one
who had probably met many of the most illus-
trious statesmen and soldiers and scholars of
the world; but he was quite pleasant, and in-
sisted upon it that he was having a wonderfully
good time. Of course his politeness and
chivalry had much to do with his saying so,
but if that was the only reason, he was a won-
derfully good actor; for we fell to talking as
if we had known each other a long time. Per-
haps after the fatigues and anxieties of the
campaign, a quiet visit with a simple girl had
a restful effect upon him ; but whatever the
cause, he was so communicative, that I felt like
asking him all sorts of questions that I would
not have dared to do an hour before.
"How did it seem, when you really found
yourself in the halls of the Montezumas, Gen-
eral ?" I asked, referring, of course, to his con-
quest of Mexico. "Didn't you feel like shout-
ing?"
"No," he replied: "I felt like falling on my
knees and thanking God for the victory. War
is a terrible thing — demoralizing in all its im-
mediate effects. Would to God it were not
sometimes necessary, in order to accomplish
results !"
He paused, and I could somehow feel that
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he was thoughtfully looking into the distance
with the eyes of memory — scanning once more,
perhaps, "The red sand of the battlefield, with
bloody corses strewn."
When, many years after this, I heard that
General Sherman said, "War is hell", I thought
of my conversation that day with Scott, just
from his glorious victories. He was not so
epigrammatic as his illustrious successor, but
be meant the same thing.
At the time General Scott and I were having
our conversation, Sherman was 'an unknown
adjutant in California, only twenty-eight years
old. Neither he nor the hero of Lundy's Lane
perhaps had any idea that in thirteen more
short years, there would be a gigantic war in
this country, the like of which had never been
known !
I lost my dinner by the interview (the Gen-
eral had had his lunch and would eat nothing),
but felt well repaid, in the fact of having en-
joyed a tete-a-tete with the greatest general
America had thus far produced since the Revo-
lution.
A little madcap adventure occurred after
we were seated on the stage, at which I
often laugh, and wonder at my own temerity.
There were by this time several public men of
the city, who had gathered in to see what was
going on, and among them an alderman, whom
I had met before, and who had the regular
aldermanic love for a joke. He whispered to
me, and suggested that I pull General Scott's
sword from the scabbard, and hold it up over
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his head in regular Damocletian style. "I will
guide your hand to its hilt," he said, "and you
can do the rest." More like a school-girl of
fourteen than a staid lady teacher in her twen-
ties, I drew the sword suddenly from its scab-
bard, held it over his head, and on the impulse
of the moment exclaimed, "General Scott, you
are my prisoner!"
I was startled at what I had done, and ap-
prehensive of what might follow at the alder-
man's odd and ill-timed joke, but was immedi-
ately relieved in mind, when the grim old war-
rior laughed good-naturedly, and replied, "I
surrender at discretion. I always do, to the
ladies. Now let me show you how to wield it."
Which he did, guiding my arm with his huge
soldierly hand. It was a simple incident, but
one for a woman to remember as long as she
lived.
After the exercises were over, he said, play-
fully :
"Well, Miss Fanny, I suppose that the next
I hear, some one will have picked you up and
run off with you."
I replied, thoughtlessly:
"Oh, no, Mr. General! I'm going to wait
for the next President!"
I said this forgetting that he had already
been talked-about as a candidate for the office ;
and my cheeks must have suddenly assumed
a fiery red color when the fact occurred to me.
But the General was safe, so far as any of us
poor spinsters were concerned: he had thirty-
one years before married the beautiful and ac-
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complished Miss Mayo, of Richmond, had
always been noted as a very chivalrous and de-
voted husband, and Mrs. Scott was still in
excellent health. She was, however, not des-
tined to grace the parlors of the White House
as the first lady of the land; the General ran
for President on the Whig ticket a few years
later, and, much to my sorrow, was defeated.
President Polk twice gave us calls at our
Institution in New York, once with his staff:
and we felt very much acquainted with him.
He was reserved in manner, if not austere : but
evidently possessed the most genial of natures.
His kindly disposition was proved, through the
following little incident:
Having been requested to show him some
of the more interesting departments of the In-
stitution, I was conducting him through one of
the halls, when there came to our ears the
voice of one of our old domestics, who had
been away from us for some time, and had,
evidently, just returned.
With my usual impulsiveness, I asked the
President to excuse me a moment, while I ran
back and greeted the dear old servant, whom
I very much loved, on account of many kind-
nesses she had shown me at times I needed
them most.
Returning to him, I made many apologies
for the seeming rudeness, explained the mat-
ter as well as I could, and with burning cheeks,
begged his pardon. His reply was soothing
and reassuring, and convinced me that under
his quiet exterior, was a sympathetic and gen-
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erous nature. "I am glad you went back, little
girl," he said : "it shows that you have a kind
heart, and a due appreciation of real worth."
Of course everything was read up and talked
up in our school, concerning the different peo-
ple of distinction who visited us : and Presi-
dent Polk's ancestry was ventilated from "way
back." When we found that the original fam-
ily in Ireland was named "Pollock", we imme-
diately wondered whether he was not some re-
lation to Robert PoUok, author of "The
Course of Time" — which we had heard read
with great interest. Our genealogical enthu-
siasm was, ere long, somewhat dampened by
one of the teachers' discovering that the dis-
tinguished Robert was a Scotchman, and
spelled his name without a "c." I have since
learned, however, that there are Scotch-Irish-
men and Irish-Scotchmen ; and that names are
occasionally modified in other countries, as
well as our own, on their way through the
generations.
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CHAPTER XXL— 1848-1850.
napoleon's faithful marshal, bertrand —
a poem of welcome — how he watched
Bonaparte's life ebb away — laura bridg-
man, and her sweetness of magnetism —
jenny lind comes and sings to the blind
students — her generosity the great
and only barnum — ^alice cary a poem
from frances ridley havergal.
GENERAL HENRI GRATIEN BER-
TRAND, on his trip to this country,
made a visit to our Institution at
about this time. We were all very much
interested in him, because he was one of the
few surviving men who knew and were near
the person of Napoleon Bonaparte, during a
large portion of his career.
Bertrand was one of the bravest and most
faithful of the "Little Corporal's" aids, and in
any ordinary war or series of wars, would have
shone forth preeminent. But it took more-
than-giants to do that in the vast Napoleonic
conflicts, and Bertrand never ranked among
the Neys, the Murats, and the McDonalds.
We remembered, however, the fact that he
had worked his way up from a captaincy of en-
gineers, had been an efficient and constantly
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growing soldier through the Italian-Egyptian
campaigns, and had participated in the beams
of glory that came flashing upon the French
at Austerlitz. We knew that after the disas-
trous battle of Aspern, he restored the passage
across the Danube for the French troops, and
did much toward saving the Emperor's army;
and that for this service he was made count,
and governor of Illyria. We had heard that at
the battle of Waterloo he helped restrain Na-
poleon from rushing into certain death; and
that when his chief was exiled to St. Helena, ht
went with him, stayed there till he saw him die,
and afterwards helped bring his body back to
Paris, when, as Victor Hugo said, "an exiled
coffin returned in triumph." He now lies near
Napoleon in the gorgeous tomb at the Hotel
des Invalides, Paris, under the famous gilded
dome : many of my readers have no doubt seen
his name there.
When Bertrand came to see us, I was as
usual deputed to write a poem of welcome ;
and had the honor of reading it before him.
In it I depicted him as sitting pensively with
his head bowed upon his hands, seeing Napo-
leon's life ebb away.
"How did you know that?" he asked me, re-
ferring to those Hnes, during our short con-
versation. "How did you know that I was in
that position?"
"I did not 'know' it", I replied : "I merely
imagined it."
"It was just the way I did sit, through all
that fearful night, until I saw Napoleon's eyes
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close, and knew that he was gone", replied
Bertrand.
He seemed somehow to have detected in the
poem a little higher praise of himself than of his
royal master; and perhaps felt more re-
sentment than gratitude at the fact. He
asked me if I were not an admirer of Na-
poleon. "I admired him as a soldier", I replied,
and stopped, only telling half the truth. He
did not press the question any farther, and
the interview soon came to an end.
Indeed, while I recognized the bravery and
faithfulness of General Bertrand, I could not
help wishing all the time that his efforts had
been put forth in the service of some better
chief; and it may be that fragments of that
thought became mingled with the poem.
From the contemplation of war and warriors,
the step to dear sweet Laura Bridgman is a
long one, but most grateful. I well remember
the first time I met her. It was in Washington :
and I had heard so much about her and her
wonderful achievements, that she seemed to
me fully as much of a curiosity as anybody in
the great national capital. I knew that at the
age of two years she had lost her sight, her
hearing, and her speech ; and that the senses of
touch and smell were also considerably im-
paired. She was given her first instruction at
the age of eight, by the well-known Dr. Howe.
He could communicate with her only by the
touch of the fingers ; and his first effort was to
make her understand the analogy between ob-
jects and the words representing them. She
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finally commenced to understand what was
wanted, and to recognize the words, produced
in raised letters. Then the letters were dis-
arranged ; she was taught to put them back in
their proper places, and in this way learned to
spell.
It took her some time to realize that here
was a means through which she could commu-
nicate with her fellow-beings, but when she
did, her happiness is said to have been pa-
thetic. After this she soon learned the manual
alphabet, and by degrees acquired as much
miscellaneous knowledge as most people whom
she met. She took lessons on the piano, and
became a skilful performer; could do fine
needle-work, and attend efificiently to many
household duties.
A girl who, though deaf, dumb, and blind,
could do all these things (and many others, of
more importance) was certainly a wonder : and
in whatever circle she moved, Laura Bridg-
rnan was "the observed of all observers."
She was fully aware of these facts, for every-
thing said about her was faithfully reported by
lier comrades in the party, through the means
of their nimble and talkative fingers; but she
continued as modest and sensible as ever, and
did not show the least undue pride in her suc-
cess as a public character. She soon became
very intimate with many of her New York
friends, and one of my sweetest recollections
i« of her, sitting upon my lap, twining her arms
around my neck, and then spelling out for me
the name, "Little Fan" — to distinguish me
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from another one of our band, who bore the
same given name as myself, and was larger in
size.
But words, with us, were hardly needed : wc
could almost understand each other's thoughts
by the magnetism that flashed between us. I
do not remember a sweeter personality than
Laura Bridgman's.
When Jenny Lind came to this country, in
1850, one of the first places she visited, was our
Institution ; and a very pleasant memory is the
beautiful music and the cordial hand-shakings
she gave us. She had already conquered Eu-
rope with the melody of her voice and the good-
ness of her heart; and all America was wild
to hear her. The first concert at which she
appeared in New York netted her $10,000 ; and
she immediately donated the entire sum to
charity.
This, of course, made her much more popu-
lar than ever; for there are few things that
people like better, than to get value received
for their money, and then have it paid back to
them.
We tried hard to induce the gentle cantatrice
to make us a speech ; but this she declined to
attempt, although having a very good com-
mand of English. She sang for us, however,
again and again. And such singing!
Of course, during this particular time,
wherever Jenny Lind went, the great and in-
evitable Barnum followed not far behind. I
knew him exceedingly well, and can say that
with all his shrewdness, he had many kind and
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generous traits of character. This conundrum
used to be printed and reprinted in the news-
papers of that date :
"Why are Jenny Lind and Barnum well cal-
culated always to agree, and never have any
difficulty? — Because one is always for giving,
and the other is always for getting !"
But Barnum made many munificent dona-
tions — which were of no less benefit to the
world, though partly advertisements.
Among the sweet memories of the past, is
that of Alice Cary, with whom I corresponded
for a time, and from whom I had many a pleas-
ant word of cheer. I used also to have letters
from Frances Ridley Havergal; and well re-
member how delighted I was, once, at receiv-
ing a poem from her, dedicated to me, which
read as follows :
AN ENGLISH TRIBUTE TO FANNY CROSBY.
Sweet blind singer over the sea.
Tuneful and jubilant, how can it be
That the songs of gladness, which float so far,
As if they fell from the evening star,
Are the notes of one who never may see
"Visible music" of flower and tree,
Purple of mountain, or glitter of snow.
Ruby and gold of the sunset glow,
And never the light of a loving face?
Must not the world be a desolate place
For eyes that are sealed with the seal of years,
Eyes that are open only for tears?
How can she sing in the dark like this?
What is her fountain of light and bliss ?
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Oh, her heart can see, her heart can see !
And its sight is strong and swift and free ;
Never the ken of mortal eye
Could pierce so deep and far and high
As the eagle-vision of hearts that dwell
In the lofty, sunlit citadel
Of faith that overcomes the world,
With banners of hope and joy unfurled,
Garrisoned with God's perfect peace.
Ringing with pseans that never cease.
Flooded with splendor bright and broad —
The glorious light of the love of God !
Her heart can see, her heart can see !
Well may she sing so joyously!
For the King Himself, in His tender grace,
Hath shown her the brightness of His face ;
And who shall pine for a glow-worm light
When the sun goes forth in his radiant might "^
She can read His law as a shining chart.
For His finger hath written it on her heart ;
She can read His love, for on all her way
His hand is writing it every day.
"Bright cloud", indeed, must that darkness be,
Where "Jesus only" the heart can see !
Her heart can see, her heart can see.
Beyond the glooms and the mystery.
Glimpses of glory not far away,
Nearing and brightening day by day :
Golden crystal and emerald bow.
Lustre of pearl and sapphire glow,
Sparkling river and healing tree.
Evergreen palms of victory,
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Harp and crown and raiment white,
Holy and beautiful dwellers in light;
A throne, and One thereon, whose face
Is the glory of that glorious place!
Dear blind sister over the sea,
An English heart goes forth to thee!
We are linked by a cable of faith and song,
Flashing bright sympathy swift along;
One in the east and one in the west,'
Singing for Him whom our souls love best ;
"Singing for Jesus", telling His love.
All the way to our home above.
Where the severing sea, with its restless tide,
Never shall hinder, and never divide.
Sister, what will our meeting be,
When our hearts shall sing and our eyes shall
see!
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CHAPTER XXII.— 1850-1868.
SECULAR SONGS — CANTATAS MEET MR. BRAD-
BURY ENGAGE TO WRITE HYMNS — LIFE-
WORK DISCOVERED A DREAM-VISION
DEATH AND FUNERAL OF MR. BRADBURY
THE MYSTERIOUS VOICE — NOM-DE-PLUMES.
DURING the fifties and sixties, I wrote
the words of several songs, which be-
came popular, and continued so for
many years.
One of these was "Rosalie, the Prairie Flow-
er"; another was "Glad to Get Home"; an-
other "Proud World, Good-bye" ; and still an-
other, "There's Music in the Air." These were
set to notes by George F. Root, and sold in
thousands of copies in sheet music and other
forms, throughout the country.
Several cantatas also constituted part of my
pen-work during this time. Among these
were "The Flower Queen" and "The Pilgrim
Fathers" — the music of the latter having been
composed jointly by George F. Root and
Lowell Mason.
But in 1864 commenced the real and most
important work of my life, so far as poetry
was concerned. In that year, the late Peter
Stryker, one of the most excellent of men, in-
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troduced me to William B. Bradbury, who was
already famous as a writer of hymn-music.
Mr. Bradbury received me with a cordiality
that made me feel immediately that we could
work together: poet and composer cannot al-
ways do that. "For many years, I have been
wanting you to write for me," he said, "but
somehow could not get opportunity to talk
with you on the subject. I wish you would
begin, right away."
It now seemed to me as if the great work of
my life had really begun: and I commenced
the delicious toil which, with an occasional
pause for rest, I have continued ever since.
If at any time I have been tempted to leave
this work, and turn my poetical efforts in other
directions, I have invariably been brought
back and spurred to fresh vigor, by the mem-
ory of a dream that I had, not long before my
taking of this, what seemed to me a sacred, trust.
It was really more than a dream — more even
than a vision: it was a kind of reality — ^with
my senses all at their fullest, though the body
was asleep.
I was in an immense observatory, and be-
fore me the largest telescope I had ever im-
agined. I could see everything plainly (for, in
my most vivid dreams, the sense of sight ap-
pears fully restored). Looking in the direction
pointed out by my friend, I saw a very bright
and captivating star, and was gradually carried
toward it — past other stars, and any amount
of celestial scenery that I have not strength
even to describe.
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At last we came to a river, and paused there.
"May I not go on ?" I asked of my guide. "Not
now, Fanny", was the reply. "You must re-
turn to the earth and do your work there, be-
fore you enter those sacred bounds; but ere
you go, I will have the gates opened a little
way, so you can hear one burst of the eternal
music."
Soon there came chords of melody such as
I never had supposed could exist anywhere:
the very recollection of it thrills me. And in
the writing of my hymns, the memory of that
journey toward the star, always cheers and in-
spires me.
The first one I wrote for Mr. Bradbury, was
the hymn that begins :
"We are going, we are going.
To a home beyond the skies.
Where the roses never wither,
And the sunlight never dies."
Others followed, in rapid succession; and
for four years, almost until the date of my as-
sociate's death, we continued to work together
in that capacity. Three volumes of hymns —
each containing from thirty to forty of mine
— were published by Mr. Bradbury. Of
all these, perhaps the one having the widest
circulation, was that which contained the
hymn beginning:
"There's a cry from Macedonia."
As I often composed as many as six or
seven hymns in one day, there were more of
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them in the aggregate than Mr. Bradbury
could set to music ; and the late Philip Phillips,
a most genial and lovable man, took several of
them for his own compositions.
From this large number of hymns that I
composed, selections were made: some were
put aside and never used. I made no pretense
of being able to do this selecting myself — it
was always performed by others; and I often
find myself wondering whether some hymn
may not have been suppressed, that was of
real merit, while others less worthy, were put
to the fore. One cannot always determine at
first sight, concerning products of the pen,
which will most forcibly strike the public mind
and heart.
But Mr. Bradbury was not strong, physical-
ly; and in 1868 he died. "I know I am not go-
ing to live very long," he used to say: "but,
Fanny, you must take up the work where I
leave it."
At his funeral, in Montclair, N. J., the first
hymn sung was that with which we had com-
menced our work together —
"We are going, we are going.
To a home beyond the skies."
It is needless to say that the exercises af-
fected me more deeply than almost anything I
had ever experienced. As I stood for a minute
by the casket which held the honored dead, I
could not refrain from sobs and tears ; but all
at once I heard a clear beautiful voice from
the congregation, saying:
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"Fanny, pick up the work where Mr. Brad-
bury leaves it ; take your harp from the willow,
and dry your tears."
I could never learn who spoke these words,
although there were several others who dis-
tinctly heard them ; but they came to my ears
very plainly, and I can hear them now.
"We see so many of your hymns in our
books!" often say new friends to me: "How
many you must have written!" But they are
often not aware that hundreds more — not with
my name attached, but bearing different nom-
de-plumes, are from my pen. I cannot now
even remember all the different names, over
a hundred in number, I have used ; but among
them are "Mrs. E. A. Andrew", "Ella Dale",
"Julia Stirling", "Victoria Francis", "Victoria
Stewart", "Lyman Cuyler", "Charles Bruce",
"Lizzie Edwards", "Grace I. Francis", "Sally
M. Smith", "Henrietta Blain", "Myra Judson",
"Charles Burns", "Alice Monteith", "James
M. Black", "Frank Gould", "Jennie Garnett",
"Victoria StirUng", "Carrie M. Wilson",
"Maud Marion", etc., etc.
Among many other incidents connected
with my hymns, is one related to me by Mr.
Ira B. Sankey, who has long been, and is still,
one of my dearest friends. When he was in
Edinburgh, an old Scotch woman came to him,
and said she wanted to thank him for writing
"Safe in the Arms of Jesus." "But I didn't
write it," replied Mr. Sankey : "that was Fanny
Crosby" ; — and he sat down and told her about
me.
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"Weel," said the old lady, when he was
through, "when ye gang back to America, gie
hei my love, an' tell her an auld Scots woman
sends her blessing. The last hymn my daugh-
ter sang before she died, was that one."
There are many other hymns that have been
widely used, and concerning which I could re-
late many (to me) interesting reminiscences.
Among these are "Rescue the Perishing",
'Speed Away", "Pass Me Not", "I Am Thine",
etc., etc.
I am sometimes asked how many hymns I
have written in my lifetime. This question I
am unable to answer accurately; but am safe
in saying that the number reaches over five
thousand.
I may be able, some time, to remember the
names of all those who have done my hymns
the honor of setting them to music, but have
not the leisure just at present. If there should
be subsequent editions of this book, I can per-
haps include them. Besides those already
mentioned and to be mentioned, stand out
prominently Prof. H. R. Palmer and Mr.
Hubert P. Main — both of whom are among
my friends still living.
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CHAPTER XXIIL— 1853-1893.
GROVER CLEVELAND AS A YOUNG MAN — HIS
GRIEF AT HIS FATHER'S DEATH HIS INDUS-
TRY AND DEVOTION TO HIS STUDIES DISPO-
SITION TO HELP OTHERS COPIES POEMS FOR
ME UPBRAIDED BY SUPERINTENDENT GRO-
VER's advice SOME PLAIN PROSE NO
MORE TROUBLE PLEASANT ACQUAINTANCE
WITH HIM AFTER HE HAD SERVED AS PRESI-
DENT.
IN 1853, our head teacher, Prof. William
Cleveland, was called to New Jersey by
the death of his father, a Presbyterian
clergyman. After a few days' absence,
be returned, bringing with him his brother, a
youth of sixteen; and the next morning after-
ward he came to consult me in regard to "the
boy."
"Grover has taken our father's death very
much to heart," he said, "and I wish you would
go into the office, where I have installed him
as clerk, and talk with him, once in a while."
So I went down as requested, and was in-
troduced to the young man — not dreaming, of
course, that I was conversing with one destined
to be twice elected to the diief magistracy of
our nation.
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We talked together unreservedly aBout his
father's death, and a bond of friendship sprung
up between us, which was strengthened by sub-
sequent interviews. He seemed a very gentle,
but intensely ambitious boy, and I felt that
there were great things in store for him — al-
though, as above intimated, there was no
thought in my mind that he would ever be
chosen from among the millions of this coun-
try, to be its President.
Whether the death of his father had settled
his mind into a serious view, or whether it was
because industry and perseverance were nat-
ural to him, 1 do no' know: but think each of
these influences bore a part toward directing
his actions.
He very seldom went out to a party or en-
tertainment with others of the same age: but
remained in his room, working away at his
books. I am told that during his entire career,
this faculty of hard and almost incessant work,
has been one of his most valuable aids.
Among other very pleasant characteristics
which I noticed in him, was a disposition to
help others, whenever possible. Knowing that
it was a great favor to me to have my poems
copied neatly and legibly, he offered to per-
form that service for me: and I several times
availed myself of his aid.
One day, just as he had finished transcribing
from my memory a poem somewhat longer
than usual, the man who was superintendent
at that time came suddenly into the office.
This was not the same gentleman who had
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greeted me so kindly upon my arrival, and
given me such good advice: but a successor,
v;ho, although wishing no doubt to do his
duty, was unable at times to control his temper.
Seeing at a glance what young Mr. Grover
Cleveland had been doing for me, he remon-
strated, violently: gave me to understand that
the clerks in the office had other work to do,
than to copy my poetry; and hurried out of
the room.
The whole affair occurred in such a whirl-
wind of bad humor, that I was dumbfounded,
and did not know what to say or how to act.
I was conscious of having done no harm in
allowing the young man to write down my
poetry for me, and knew not whether to rave,
or to adopt the good old feminine remedy of
indulging in a few straightforward tears.
To my great surprise, young Mr. Cleveland
broke into a low but very decided laugh. "We
are entirely within our rights, Fianny," he ex-
plained, "and he had no business to interrupt
or reproach us. Tomorrow, at this time, come
down here with another poem; I will copy it
for you; he will step into the office again, as
he generally does at this time ; he will no doubt
'start in' to administer to you another 'going
over'; and then, if I were you, I would give
him a few paragraphs of plain prose, that he
would not very soon forget."
The whole event turned as Grover had fore-
told. The superintendent came in, just as the
young man was finishing up another poem;
and commenced a second series of reproaches.
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But I had my "prose" all ready : and impart-
ed it to the gentleman at once. I reminded
him, in as mild a voice as I could, but as firm
a one as was necessary, under the circum-
stances, that I was a teacher there, and had
rights, as well as he ; that my poems had been
used largely for the benefit of the Institution,
and that the reciting of them had not been
without its mission in calling new students to
us; that under such circumstances, I should
claim the help of the attaches of the school,
whenever they were willing to give it, without
neglecting other duties; and that if he ever
referred to the subject again, I .should ask the
trustees what they thought about it.
"You will never have any more trouble with
him", laughed young Mr. Cleveland, the next
time we met.
This prediction proved true: the same sa-
gacity that has since been used in the manipu-
lation of cabinets and councils, had, almost in
its very beginnings, come to the aid of a poor
blind teacher.
I have since had the privilege of a very pleas-
ant acquaintance with my boy-amanuensis: I
have traced him through the different offices
in which he has been entrusted with' the public
interests of his feUow-countrymen ; have been
at his home, been greeted by his sweet and ac-
complished wife, and held his children in my
arms ; and have always found him, in spirit, the
same modest, sensible boy, that copied my
poems years ago.
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CHAPTER XXIV.— 1893-1903.
THE MAKING OF A HYMN — THE "hYMN-WORK-
SHOp" — "moods" in writing — "building" a
MOOD BEGINNING WITH PRAYER MEASURE
AND TUNE WRITING TO AN AIR THE BOOKS
OF THE MIND — HYMNS WAITING FOR THEIR
MATES.
TRUE hymns may be said, in one sense, to
make themselves; although they must
be given human instruments through
which to work. No one should ever
attempt to write a hymn, unless the ideas flow
easily and naturally. But how is this to be
brought about? — Some details of personal ex-
perience may not be uninteresting to the read-
ers of this book — nearly all of whom are likely
to be more or less interested in the subject.
"Take us into the hymn-workshop or labora-
tory", friends sometimes say to me. "Let us
know your processes of thought, of feeling, of
accomplishment. Give us the steps you em-
ploy, as nearly as possible, in constructing a
hymn."
Well, I will, as accurately as I can. Maybe
this chapter will inspire others to write sacred
songs that shall do good in the future.
There is a great deal said nowadays, and I
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do not know but there always has been, about
"moods" in writing. There is much truth in
the doctrine. There are some days, or at least
hours, when I could not compose a hymn if the
world were laid at my feet as a promised
recompense. Fancy writing verses when one
has that "hell of a' diseases", as Robbie Burns
called it, the toothache ! The silent cry of the
suffering molar would run through it all. Im-
agine yourself trying to get into sweet accord
with Heaven while your nerves were suflEering
from neuralgia! It could not be done. Sick
people have written good poetry, but I fancy
it was in their intervals of partial convales-
cence.
I am not subject to very many unpleasant
sensations on account of ill health: the good
Lord has given me a sound constitution, and
a body which, though not particularly strong
in appearance, is fitted to endure. But there
are times when I am not in the mood to write,
and when, as I said above, it would not be pos-
sible for me immediately to compose a hymn.
So what would I do, if it were necessary
or highly desirable that a hymn be written on
a certain day or night: as, for some occasion,
or some work soon to be published? — If I
were not in the mood to write, I would build
a mood — or, try to draw one around me.
1 should sit alone, as I have done on many
a day and night, praying God to give me the
thoughts and the feelings wherewith to com-
pose my hymn. After a time — ^perhaps not
unmingled with struggle — ^the ideas would
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come, and I would soon be happy in my verse.
It may seem a little old-fashioned, always to
begin one's work with prayer : but I never
undertake a hymn without first asking the
good Lord to be my inspiration in the work
that I am about to do.
Although, of course, I cannot read a printed
book, having been deprived of sight almost
from birth, yet, while composing, I feel hap-
pier and more at ease, if I hold a small volume
in my hand. This may be a matter of habit :
during my many years of teaching, I always
kept a small book in my hands ; and in reciting
my own poems to audiences, I follow the same
method.
When at last I have arrived at the proper
stage of thought and feeling, and am sure that
I am in condition to reach the minds and
hearts of my constituency, and sing to them
something worthy for them to hear, I cast
about, for a few minutes, as to the measure,
and, possibly, the tune.
Much more depends upon this, than might
at first seem to be the case. For if there is a
false accent or a mistake in the metre, the
hymn cannot stand much chance of proving a
success; or at least its possibilities are very
much lessened. Among the millions of hymns
that have been sung and forgotten, many con-
tain no doubt deep and pious thought and feel-
ing, but have been crippled and killed by the
roughness of some line, or the irregularity of
one or more measures.
Often I take in my mind some tune already
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well known, as a model, or, perhaps, more ac-
curately speaking, as a guide, and work to it.
This, however, does not imply that the tune
will ultimately be chosen as the companion of
the words : for it has probably already its own
true and lawful mate, with which it is to be
happy and useful. Sometimes a tune is fur-
nished me for which to write the words.
"Blessed Assurance" was made in this man-
ner. My dear friend, Mrs. Joseph F. Knapp,
so well known as a writer and singer of most
exquisite music, and as an aid and inspiration
to all who know her, had composed the tune,
and it seemed to me one of the sweetest I
had heard for a long time. She asked me to
write a hymn for it, and I felt, while bringing
the words and tones together, that the air and
the hymn were intended for each other. In
the many hundred times that I have heard it
sung, this opinion has been more and more
confirmed.
After any particular hymn is done, I let it lie
for a few days in the writing-desk of my mind,
so to speak, until I have leisure to prune it, to
read it through with the eyes of my memory,
and in other ways mould it into as presentable
shape as possible. I often cut, trim, and
change it.
"How can you remember a hymn?" I am
often asked. To this I need only reply that
recollecting is not entirely a lost art, although
we live in rushing days of memorandum-
tablets and carefully kept journals and ledgers.
The books of the mind are just as real and tan-
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gible as those of the desk and the library-
shelves — if we only will use them enough to
keep their binding flexible, and their pages free
from dust.
I have no trouble in sorting and arranging
my literary and lyric wares within the apart-
ments of my mind. If I were given a little
while in which to do it, I could take down from
its shelves, hundreds if not thousands of
hymns, that I have written during the sixty
years in which I have been praising my Re-
deemer through this medium of song. Do not
let go to decay and ruin those vast interior re-
gions of thought and feeling, good brother or
sister ! Your memory would be much to you
if you were ever deprived of some of the or-
gans of sense that now so distract you from
deep and continued thought.
After the hymn is finished, and transcribed
by some friend, it generally waits for its tune,
and steadfastly hopes that it will succeed in
making a matrimonial alliance, and a good
one. I have had the advantage, for the most
part, of very sympathetic and talented com-
posers.
After Mr. Bradbury's death, I wrote many
hymns for W. H. Doane, who composed much
beautiful music. One day he came to me hur-
riedly, and exclaimed: "Fanny, I have just
forty minutes to catch the cars for Cincinnati;
during that time you must write me a hymn,
and give me a few minutes to catch the train."
I happened to be in a good mood for writing ;
he hummed the melody to which he wanted
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the words written; and in fifteen minutes I
gave them to him, and he started away. Upon
his arrival home, he published them; and I
have been told upon good authority that the
hymn is now sung wherever Christian music
is known. Many of the readers of this book
no doubt, are familiar with it. It begins as
follows :
■'Safe in the arms of Jesus,
Safe on his gentle breast.
There by his love o'ershadowed,
Sweetly my soul shall rest."
The writing of the hymn, "All the Way My
Saviour Leads Me", was the result of a bit of
personal experience. One day, I wanted the
modestly substantial amount of five dollars for
a particular purpose, and needed it very bad-
ly. I did not know, just then, exactly how to
get it : and was led in my mind to pray for it.
Somehow, I knew the good Lord would give
it to me if I asked him for it — though exactly
how, I did not know.
Not long after I had prayed for the money,
a gentleman came into the house, "passed the
time of day", shook hands with me, and went
out immediately. When I closed my hand,
after the friendly salutation, I found in it a
five-dollar bill, which he had left there.
I have no way to account for this, except to
believe that God, in answer to my prayer, put
it into the heart of this good man, to bring me
the money.
My first thought, after finding out the pe-
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Dr. Lowry Sets Hymn to Music.
cuniary value of this little silken reminder of
friendship and regard, was,
"In what a wonderful way the Lord Helps
me ! All the way my Saviour leads me !"
I immediately wrote the hymn, and Dr.
Robert Lowry, the famous clergyman-hymn-
writer, set it to music.
I could mention here, many and many a
case, in which I have had direct answer to
prayer. I have never had the least reason to
doubt the practical usefulness of that promise
that if we ask we shall receive. Our Saviour
is so willing not only to lead us, but to supply
our wants, if we will only ask him !
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CHAPTER XXV.— 1900.
A POEM BY WILL CARLETON.
WHILE I was visiting at the home
of my constant and loving friends,
Mr. and Mrs. Will Carleton, in
Brooklyn, New York, on my
eightieth birthday Mr. Carleton wrote the fol-
lowing poem, which I insert here, not from
vanity, I am sure my readers will believe, but
with a desire to place on record my happiness
at some of the kind things that have been said
about me.
Song-bird in the dark.
Adding each day unto our lyric treasure,
And rising, like the lark,
Nearer to heaven for each ecstatic measure :
Sing on, O rich, clear voice,
'Mid the world's clamor for the world's pos-
session ;
Thou art the angels' choice
To give their sweetest anthems earth-expres-
sion I
Love on, O gentle heart.
To all mankind with stately pureness clinging ;
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The followers of thy art,
With lips devout caress thee in their singing!
In myriad temples grand,
Through whose broad aisles the organ-tones
are peaUng,
Thy words walk hand in hand
With truths the rich-bound Bible is revealing.
By many a cottage door.
Where Faith and Love with Poverty are dwell-
ing.
Thy sweet words, o'er and o'er.
The mother to her new-found babe is telling.
Where arctic snow-storms sweep.
Where tropic ghosts a hand to death are reach-
ing.
Thy jeweled words still keep
Their tryst with God, and aid His solemn
teaching.
Song-bird in the light,
Thou shalt see splendors when this world's
have faded !
E'en now thy path is bright
With stars in heaven, whose kindling thou hast
aided.
Yearn on, O lofty soul.
Though voices from the song-land intercede
thee!
Spurn not this earth's control
Yet many years: our suffering mortals need
thee.
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But when at last The King
Shall bid thy friends above to cease their wait-
ing.
The angel-choirs will sing.
To welcome thee, some hymn of thy creating.
And Christ will be thy guide.
Confirming, step by step, His wondrous story ;
And seek the Father's side,
And say, "She taught the world to sing Thy
glory."
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CHAPTER XXVL— 1843-1903.
OLDEST AND NEWEST HYMNS.
I AM often asked, "Do you write as many
hymns as ever?" Perhaps not, quite: but
this is owing to the fact that I spend so
much time visiting churches in dififerent
parts of the country, and speaking, and read-
ing my poems to audiences.
My relations with Christian Endeavor So-
cieties, and Young Men's Christian Associa-
tions, are also very intimate and friendly: and
I often address them. I wear a gold badge of
membership, presented me by one of the Rail-
road Branches of the Y. M. C. A.
I include in this chapter some of my earliest
and some of my latest hymns : others can
be found in various hymn-books. In one of
those here published, it will be noticed, words
and music are both by myself : but I have here-
tofore been content to write the words, and let
others furnish the music. This is the only
case in which I have departed from the rule.
While writing my earlier poems, I did not
attempt hymns : although my mind was often
drawn in that direction. I greatly admired
the grand productions of Watts, Wesley,
Montgomery, and others: but it did not then
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occur to me that I could write hymns that
people would care to sing.
Everything in this world is progressive, and
courage and ambition are no exception to the
rule. I seem to have been led, little by little,
toward my life-work.
Often, in those early days, would come over
me the inclination to write hymns : but I re-
sisted it, or, what amounted to about the same
thing, let it go by default.
Still, as the sweetness and grandeur of the
religion of our Saviour sank into my heart, I
felt more and more like putting my feelings
into rhythm. And, if my friends will pardon
me for perhaps giving the matter too much im-
portance, I will say, that the following stanzas,
one of the few distinctly religious poems of
my first book, constituted my first hymn :
EVENING HYMN.
Ps.IV:8 — "/ will both lay me down in peace
and sleep; for thou, Lord, only, makest me to dwell
in safety."
Drawn is the curtain of the night.
Oh 'tis the sacred hour of rest;
Sweet hour, I hail thee with delight,
Thrice welcome to my weary breast.
O God to thee my fervent prayer,
I offer, kneeling at thy feet;
Tho' humbly breathed, O deign to hear —
Smile on me frofn the mercy seat !
While angels round their watches keep,
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Easter Sunday.
Whose harps thy praise unceasing swell,
"I lay me down in peace and sleep",
For thou in safety mak'st me dwell.
Drawn is the curtain of the night.
Thou bid'st creation silent be.
And now, with holy calm delight,
Father, I would commune with thee.
Shepherd of Israel, deign to keep
And guard my soul from every ill ;
Thus will I lay me down, and sleep.
For thou in safety mak'st me dwell.
The following is, so far as I can remember,
my second hymn :
EASTER SUNDAY.
Hail, sacred morn ! When from the tomb
The son of God arose;
"Captivity he captive led".
And triumphed o'er his foes.
Rejoice! O holy church, rejoice!
Awake thy noblest strain !
Put off thy weeds of mourning, now.
The Saviour lives again.
Oh let thy loud hosannas reach
The portals of the sky.
Where angels tune their gentle harps.
And heavn'ly choirs reply.
Glory to God — He ever lives
To plead our cause above;
He — He is worthy to receive
All honor, power, and love.
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Hail, mighty King! — we at thy feet
Our grateful homage pay;
Accept the humble sacrifice
And wash our sins away.
Then, at the resurrection morn,
When the last trump shall sound.
May we awake to life anew,
And with thy saints be found.
Another attempt at distinctively sacred
poetry, made about this same time, and which
may be considered my third hymn, was as
follows :
CHRISTMAS HYMN.
How tranquil, how serene the night.
When to the sleepy earth,
A heavenly host of seraphs bright,
Proclaimed a Saviour's birth!
The shepherds on Judea's plains,
With wonder heard their songs :
"Glory to God! to Him alone.
Our highest praise belongs !
"Glory to God!" — through Heaven's broad
arch.
The sacred chorus ran:
"Good will, and never-ending peace.
Henceforth to mortal man.
"Glory to God ! let all the earth.
To Him their honors bring.
And every heart, and every tongue,
His praise responsive sing !"
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Only Hymn Set to Music by Self.
The following are from some of my newest
hymns, and, in relation to those given, repre-
sent an interval of perhaps sixty years — during
which time I have almost constantly been busy
writing hymns of varying merit:
SPRING HYMN.
Words and Music bV Fanny Cfosby.
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The inounbiinB glow with ver - dnre, The liilln with joy re - Bonnd.
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O ihou whose Jov^ beholdeth
The world thy hajid hath maae.
Criaator, L«rd, Redeemer.
.■'Iq majesty arrayedl
We praise thee for the spring time.
And all.lta golden houra,
For lake and aparkllng fountain.
For BunBhlne, hlrdfl, and flowei^.
And when thy voice shall call us
To yonder bllaaful shore.
Where spring abldeth ever
And winter comes no more,.
Beside theocryatal river.
Among tbe ransomed throng,
We'll blend our harps triumphant
In one eternal song.
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While at a meeting of the "Farther Lights",.
at the residence of Mrs. Will Carleton, the
Founder of the Society, I was elected a mem-
ber, and a badge of the Order was pinned upon
me. This, I was proud to know, took place
in the very parlor where occurred the first
meeting of Farther Lights ever held.
I was inspired to write a hymn for these
loved sisters in the missionary-cause ; and soon
sent them the following:
SPEED ON, O light!
Speed on thy glorious mission,
light of purest love.
Whose radiant beams were kindled
In Edenland above;
Speed on where those that languish
In sorrow's dreary nights,
Shall feel the joy thou bringest.
And hail the Farther Lights!
O band of Christian workers,
With whom I oft have met,
Whose voices kind and gentle
1 hear in memory yet —
In this my prayer ascending
My inmost soul unites —
God bless the Christian circle
We call the Farther Lights !
God bless your heartfelt labor,
My youthful sisters dear,
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The World for Christ.
And grant you strength and courage
Through grace to persevere;
Till India's happy greeting
With Afric's song unites;
While on the flaming watch-tower
Still shine the Farther Lights!
THE WORLD FOR CHRIST — A NEW-YEAR RALLY-
ING SONG.
Air, "From Greenland's Icy Mountains."
Arise, O Christian soldiers,
And consecrate anew
Your all upon the altar.
Of Him who died for you I
Arise in faith united.
And let this year record
Your undivided service,
To Christ, our risen Lord !
Oh, rally 'round His standard;
Defend the cross you love ;
And look to Him for wisdom
And counsel from above.
Against the arch deceiver.
Against the host of sin,
March on with steady purpose
The world for Christ to win !
Be strong, O Christian soldiers,
On Jesus cast your care !
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And when the conflict rages
Let ev'ry breath be prayer.
Fear not ; the Lord is with you :
'Tis He who speaks within ;
March on with zeal and courage
The world for Christ to win !
Go forth, go forth rejoicing,
And in the Master's name.
To weary souls that perish,
Eternal life proclaim!
The crowning day is coming ;
The end of toil and sin ;
March on through grace determined
The world for Christ to win !
CHRIST HATH RISEN.
Airs, "St. George"; "Mary to lite Saviour's
Tomb."
Still and silent as the night,
Holy angels robed in light
Came and rolled the stone away.
From the tomb where Jesus lay.
Backward, trembling, pale with dread,
Lo, the arch-deceiver fled,
When the Prince of Life arose,
Mighty Conqueror o'er His foes !
Strike your harps, ye saints on high !
With your anthems fill the sky !
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Hymn to Summer.
Ye who sang "a Saviour born".
Hail His resurrection morn !
Jesus lives the world to save :
Where thy triumph, boasting grave ?
Death is vanquished, bound in chains ;
Christ, our Lord, forever reigns !
On this bright and glorious day,
When the faithful meet to pray.
Bring the Easter lilies fair,
Nature's gems of beauty rare.
Let the organ's lofty strain
Thrill our raptured souls again;
Christ hath risen from the tomb,
Clothed in Heav'n's immortal bloom !
HYMN TO SUMMER.
O summer, lovely summer.
We hail thy golden hours.
And welcome back the sunshine
That wakes thy dewy flowers;
The queenly rose and lily
Adorn each rural spot.
And greet their gentle sister.
The sweet forget-me-not.
The fields are white with daisies.
The hills are green and fair ;
The merry birds are singing —
There's music everywhere.
The brook and sparkling fountain
Have caught the tuneful strain.
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While echoes from the forest
Ring out their glad refrain.
O summer, lovely summer,
In all thy bright array.
New hopes and joys unfolding
With each returning day 1
The promised tune of harvest
Thy coming soon will bring;
And o'er the sheaves he gathers.
The reaper's heart will sing!
HARVEST HYMN.
Air, "I Shall See the King in His Beauty."
All hail to the days that are coming.
How lovely the blue ether sky;
The fields in their beauty are smiling.
The harvest already is nigh.
The voice of the brook and the fountain.
The song of the bird and the bee.
Their carol in harmony blending.
Are happy as happy can be.
Lo, yonder the queen of the harvest
Comes forth as the toilers appear.
And waving her chaplet of lilies
She greets them with mirth and good cheer.
Now thrust in your sickles, ye reapers.
And gather the ripe golden grain;
The Lord has rewarded your labor,
And crowned it with plenty again.
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Ode to Thanksgiving.
The seed that you scattered in springtime
Grew up with the fruits and the flowers,
Refreshed with the joy-laden zephyrs
The sunshine, the dew, and the showers.
And oh, when the sheaves you have garnered.
Be mindful His love to recall,
And praise with your highest devotion
The bountiful giver of all!
O land, by the God of our fathers,
Protected, exalted, and blest,
O nation, where Freedom has planted
The banner of peace and of rest.
Give thanks for a plentiful harvest,
His name and His mercy revere.
Who prospers the hand of the toiler,
And crowns with his goodness the year
ODE TO THANKSGIVING.
Air, "America."
Anthems to God above.
Source of eternal love.
Now let us sing!
Praise our Creator's name.
Come as our Fathers came:
Hail and with loud acclaim
Our Lord and King!
Thanks for our favored land.
By His Almighty hand
Guarded from ill!
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Thanks for the dew and rain,
Broad field and sunny plain
Where stores of fruit and grain
Our garners fill !
Thanks for our banner bright,
Spangled with starry light,
Boast of the free —
Signal to those oppressed.
Honored, revered, and blest.
Waving its noble crest
O'er land and sea !
Lord, from thy throne on high
Bend thy approving eye
O'er us, we pray!
This be our one desire:
Faith, love, and zeal inspire ;
Light with devotion's fire
Our souls today!
CHRISTMAS CAROL.
Air, "Portuguese Hymn."
Fulfilled is the promise, a Saviour is born:
With loud acclamation we hallow the morn !
To God in the highest all glory we sing,
And welcome the advent of Jesus, our King!
We come like the shepherds who knelt at His
feet;
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Evening Time.
We come like the wise men our monarch to
greet.
Our faith-star unclouded shines bright on our
way,
And leads to the manger where cradled He lay.
Good-will from our Father and peace unto
men :
Oh, wonderful chorus ! we hear it again.
In grandeur and beauty still rolling along;
While valley and mountain break forth into
song!
O blessed Redeemer, by prophets foretold !
We herald the story that never grows old.
Our heart's adoration before Him we bring,
And joyful hosannas to Jesus, our King!
We come with the faithful who gather today
In grateful devotion our tribute to pay ;
We come with the children our carols to sing,
And shout hallelujah to Jesus, our King!
EVENING TIME.
Melody, "Sweet Hour of Prayer."
At evening time, sweet evening time.
When memory-bells in tuneful chime
Awake the joys to which we clung.
When days were bright and life was young,
'Tis then the voice of one we love,
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Whose spirit dwells in realms above,
In thought repeats from yonder clime
The prayers she taught at evening time.
'Tis wafted on the fragrant breeze,
That simple prayer whose words were these :
"And now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep."
A mother's form, a mother's face,
Her tender look and gentle grace,
With memory-bells that softly chime.
Come back to us at evening time.
They come like balm and lull to rest
The aching brow and throbbing breast ;
We feel her arms around us thrown.
And how her love is still our own.
Ah, soon we'll gladly clasp her hand
Amid the flowers of Eden land.
Where memory-bells forever chime
Beyond the shades of evening time !
FROM STAR TO STAR.
Melody, "Autumn."
There are voices — ^happy voices —
And our hearts with joy they fill,
When our faith is looking upward,
And the busy world is still:
How we listen to their music
From our Father's home afar.
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Tricsting.
Where on Love's eternal mission,
We shall roam from staF*to star!
There are voices — gentle voices —
And we hear them in a dream,
Like the carol of a birdling
Or the murmur of a stream :
And they draw our spirits nearer
To the pearly gates afar.
Where among the just made perfect,
We shall roam from star to star !
There are voices — kindred voices —
And they call from yonder shore
Where our golden harps will waken
Songs we never knew before :
Oh, the rapture that awaits us
In the glory-land afar
Where together and forever
We shall roam from star to star !
TRUSTING.
Ait, "Day and Night thy Lambs Are Crying."
I am trusting, O my Saviour !
I am trusting only thee ;
I have proved thy gracious promise —
As my day my strength shall be.
I am trusting, O my Saviour!
Though my path I may not know ;
When thou callest, I will answer ;
Where thou leadest, I will go.
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I am trusting, O my Saviour!
And my hand is firm in thine ;
Though the clouds may sometimes gather,
Still I see thy glory shine.
And I look beyond the shadows
To the sunny fields of rest.
And I catch the glad hosannas
Of the faithful and the blest.
I am trusting, O my Saviour!
I am trusting day by day ;
Holy angels guard my footsteps,
And I cannot lose my way.
For thy spirit hovers o'er me,
Like a pure and gentle dove ; ,
And in all my cares and sorrows,
I can hear His voice of love.
Like the early dews of morning.
How thy precious gifts descend!
And I know that thou art with me
And will keep me to the end.
In thy secret place abiding.
Oh the joy thy presence brings !
I am covered with thy feathers —
I am safe beneath thy wings !
TO THE RESCUE.
Air, "All the Way My Saviour Leads Me.''
Oh, the sad and troubled faces
That we meet from day to day.
And the hearts that break in silence
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As they plod their dreary way !
Can we pass them by unheeded;
Can we leave them still alone,
When 'tis ours to scatter roses
Where relentless thorns are strown?
With an earnest prayerful spirit,
In the name of Christ our Lord,
Let us ask if we are living
As He taught us in His word.
Have we fed the poor and clothed them
As the Saviour gave command ?
To reclaim an erring brother
Have we lent a helping hand ?
Oh, the homes that we may comfort.
Homes where want and sorrow dwell !
If unfaithful to the Master,
Can we say with us 'tis well ?
To the rescue let us hasten.
Ere the warning sun goes down :
Lest our work be left unfinished.
And another take our crown !
GOD S LIGHT OF PROMISE.
Air, "Webb."
Rejoice, rejoice, O pilgrim!
Lift up thine eyes and see
Above the mist and shadows
A light that shines for thee !
'Tis God's own light of Promise-
His smile of perfect peace :
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And soon with Him forever
Thy weary march will cease.
Rejoice, rejoice, O pilgrim.
And hail the blessed light.
Whose radiant beams are leading
Beyond the veil of night!
Let love thy soul inspiring
Thy faith and hope increase
Till safe among the ransomed
Thy weary march shall cease !
Rejoice, rejoice, O pilgrim :
The Master's work fulfil !
The light that cheers thy pathway
Is growing brighter still !
Press onward, O press onward
To realms of perfect peace.
When in thy Father's kingdom
Thy weary march shall cease !
THERE ARE MOMENTS.
Tune, "Shall We Know Each Other There?"
There are moments — ^blessed moments —
That in spirit we recall;
There are seasons of refreshing —
Oh how precious to us all !
When we feel the sacred presence
Of our great High Priest and King,
And as if by inspiration
Of His wondrous love we sing !
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There Are Moments.
There are moments — blessed moments-
When a radiance from the skies
Seems to burst in all its glory
On our faith-illumined eyes ;
And we hear a voice proclaiming,
While in song our voices blend,
"I am Alpha and Omega,
The beginning and the end."
There are moments — blessed moments-
When such perfect joy we see.
That we stand upon the threshold
Of a life that soon shall be ;
And again the Master speaketh
While in silent prayer we blend :
He again confirms the promise,
"I am with you to the end !"
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CHAPTER XXVIL— 1903.
A POEM BY MARGARET E. SANGSTER.
WHILE this book was in preparation,
its publishers wrote, without my
previous knowledge, to my dear
friend Mrs. Sangster, for a poem to
appear in its pages. I understand that within
a few hours the gifted poet had written and
mailed the following lines, which, as in the
previous cases in this book, I include with no
other feeling than thankfulness for the kind
and partial friends that God has raised up
around me:
The dear Lord has kept her close to Him,
In a little curtained space
That never is wholly dusk or dim.
Because of His shining face;
Though we are afraid of the brooding dark
It cannot be so to her,
For the Lord Himself has made an ark
For His loving worshipper.
There are things of earth that she cannot see,
Except with her spirit's eyes ;
The light in the blossom-perfumed tree,
The stars in the still night-skies ;
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But never imagine she has not known
Far fairer sights than ours !
The hem of His garment round her thrown
Is broidered with fadeless flowers.
She smiles the smile of a happy child,
Her voice as the child's is sweet,
.She has followed so safe through wood and
wild.
The print of her Saviour's feet.
Her ear, attuned to the finest chord.
Has caught the songs of heaven ;
She has taught us all how to praise her Lord
For the grace of sins forgiven.
Her song has bubbled with notes of joy,
Has risen in faith so strong,
It has reached the height where the whole em-
ploy
Is praise, where the ransomed throng.
And year by year as the sifted snow
Of age on her head is white.
She has been as a child of the long ago.
In her dear Lord's loving sight.
Why call her blind, who can see so well
The hidden things and clear:
Who knows so much that she may not tell.
Of the land that's drawing near?
The pure in heart, our Saviour said.
And the word is true for aye.
Though drifting centuries on have sped.
Since He went to His home on high,
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The pure in heart shall see, ah ! yes.
They shall see the face of Him
Who dwells forever in ceaseless bliss
Between the cherubim.
Of her we love, this wondrous word
Is true in very deed.
'Tis the sigfht of her own, her loving Lord,
In her sightless eyes we read.
God bless her ever! we lift the prayer —
Our hearts would hold her, fain
To guard her now from the weight of care.
To shield her life from pain.
And when at last an angel comes
To lead her in to the King,
God give her a place in the best of homes
Where the choiring angels sing !
May the thin veil drop from the gentle eyes.
And by the King's own grace
When she sees Him, clear, with no surprise,
May she have a sheltered place
In a little corner white and fair.
And very near His feet :
And never a voice 'mid the voices there,
Shall ring more true and sweet !
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CHAPTER XXVIIL— 1903.
LIVING AND LEARNING STILL — THINGS "tHEN"
AND NOW FIRST RAILROADS — FIRST TELE-
GRAPH-WIRE TELEPHONES — NEWSPAPERS —
THE MANY OTHER IMPROVEMENTS AND IN-
VENTIONS — A LIFE OF JOY AND SUNSHINE —
CONTINUALLY MEETING OLD FRIENDS RESI-
DENCE IN BROOKLYN REMOVAL TO BRIDGE-
PORT — "as young as WE feel" NO "IN-
FIRMITIES OF age" — HOPE TO BE A CEN-
TENARIAN—WILLING TO GO, WHEN THE LORD
CALLS.
LIVING and learning still, in this year of
our Lord, 1903, I have again and
again to repeat the words that were
flashed over the wires in the very
first telegram ever sent : "What hath God
wrought !"
At the time I made my little excursion down
the Hudson River (narrated in a preceding
chapter), in search of physical light, there was
not a single locomotive in this country, and
no immediate prospect that there would ever
be any. There was just one little railroad,
four miles long: and that ran from Quincy,
Mass., to the ocean, and its cars were used for
the purpose of transporting granite from the
quarries to a landing, where it could be placed
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upon ships, which should carry it to different
parts of the world.
It was not until 1827, when I was seven
years old, that news went through the country,
of two men having been sent to England, to
buy some locomotives ! They were not verv
"flush" with them, over there: but these mes-
sengers from the Western Republic succeeded
in getting three of the desired articles, for
use on the Delaware and Hudson Railroad.
And what queer little creatures they were,
as we remember the descriptions of them, and
compare them with what now exists! — al-
though they probablv looked very large and
imposing, to people who had never seen any-
thing greater than wagons and carriages. No
doubt many of the automobiles of today are
larger and stronger than were those locomo-
tives, which had only four wheels apiece, and
were small in proportion.
But these were, so to speak, the progeni-
tors of others : a flock of them soon appeared.
In 1830, when I was ten years old, news came
that Peter Cooper, afterwards famous for the
founding of the Cooper Institute, in New York
City, had really built an engine of his own, at
Baltimore, instead of sending to England for
it.
He soon took the famous trip from Albany
to Schenectady and back, on what is now a
part of the great New York Central and Hud-
son River system: and a great contrast that
little outfit (so well known by pictures of it)
would be, to the swift and heavy express-
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Railroads — Telegraphs — Telephones.
trains that now rush along those tracks !
"What hath God wrought!"
There are now, probably, over a hundred
thousand miles of railway in this country, and
considerably more than twenty thousand loco-
motives. It is something to have lived long
enough to witness all this change and growth !
When I first went to school, in New York,
and for many years afterward, there was no
way of communicating with my friends at
home, excepting by the mail-coach or by pri-
vate messenger : and that took a long and tedi-
ous time, compared to present methods and
facilities. Often, when friends and relatives
lived at some distance from each other, one
would be dead and buried before the other
even knew that anything was amiss.
As railroads multiplied, the means for dis-
seminating news became better and better:
but it was not until 1844, that the first tele-
graphic message was sent.
What changes have taken place since, in
that respect ! Now we can send long commu-
nications in a few seconds, almost anywhere
in the civilized world ; now we can even throw
our voices, through the wonderful ventrilo-
quism of the telephone, hundreds and eve-
thousands of miles ; now people upon ships
are communicating with each other and with
people on the shore, by means of wireless tele-
graphy, all the way across the ocean.
Not only can intelligence be communica_ted
to and fro with astonishing quickness, but the
great events of the preceding day are spread
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before the people, as soon as they are up in
the morning. Everybody that can read, has
this luxury — from the millionaire in his man-
sion, to the workman going to his early morn-
ing task. "What hath God wrought!"
Thousands of other improvements I might
mention — the absence and the beginnings of
which, I can well recollect. The drawing-
room car, the sleeping-car, the air-brake (by
which many lives have been saved), the phono-
graph, the moving picture, the bicycle, the
typewriter, the X-ray, the elevator, the sew-
ing-machine, the parlor- and safety-match,
anffisthetics, the reaper and mower, the sub-
marine boat, the type-setting machine (with
which this very book is "set up") — all these,
and many others, have been invented within
the span of my lifetime.
During the past ten years, and up to the
present time, my life has continued to be, for
the most part, one of joy and sunshine. I do
not write quite so much as in other days, but
have not by any means laid my pen asidi"
From the vantage-ground of eighty-three
years, I look back upon fair and peaceful val-
leys, plains, and hillsides, covered by flowers.
interspersed with only now and then a thorn.
My health continues, as has been almost
constantly the case for many years, good and
sound; my spirits are every bit as light and
gay as during my girlhood; my enjoyment of
all ^he blessings of life, is more full and intense
than ever.
Among my audiences at various places,
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Pleasant Days.
during lecture-trips, I am continually meet-
ing old acquaintances, who recall former
scenes, and enable me to live them over again.
I also meet many new friends, who profess
themselves to have been for many years drawn
toward me by my hymns.
Many words of love and appreciation are
constantly falling upon my ears ; and I feel that
it is truly the Lord's hand that leads me.
It has been my privilege to visit the North-
field Convention, that famous institution
founded by the late D. L. Moody, for several
years in succession ; I often attend other sum-
mer conventions of the kind. In these, I am
enabled to address large audiences, who al-
ways listen to my humble words with close and
respectful attention.
It is an addition to the pleasure of these oc-
casions, that I am thus enabled to hear some
of the best orators and musicians that the
world aiifords; and keep pace, as well as my
poor abilities are able, with the thought and
feeling of the centuries.
I had for many years lived in Brooklyn, which
I found a very pleasant locality, and where I
have many dear and treasured friends, whom
I still visit from time to time ; but three years
ago it was considered best for my health that
I remove to Bridgeport, Conn., and make my
home with a widowed sister, who has been a
lifelong resident of that city. I find that the
change has been decidedly beneficial.
A great deal has often been said about "the
infirmities of age", and "the decline of life";
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but I believe that we are really "as young as
we feel", and that while I continue to do good
for the sake of it and for the love of it, the
sunshine of hope and gladness will ever attend
my footsteps.
I believe myself still really in the prime of
life : ready to take up any duty that suggests
itself, and to do it with my utmost strength.
I do not at this age feel any more fatigue from
my frequent journeys and efforts before audi-
ences, than I did thirty years ago. My work
grows sweeter and grander to me each day;
and I believe the public, in buying large num-
bers of this my Life-Story, will' show that it
means to encourage and sustain me in it.
I am often asked, "How long do you
expect to live?" This question, of course, I
cannot accurately answer: but am willing to
stay as long as the good Lord has any work
for me to do; and have "set the mark" at
one hundred and three — the age at which my
grandmother died — my mother living to be
over ninety. My ancestors were Puri-
tans; my family tree is rooted around Ply-
mouth Rock ; all my predecessors of lineage
died at a good old age. Whenever the Lord
calls me, I am willing to go ; but if He chooses
to leave me here until the above-mentioned
time, or even longer, I shall continue to gather
sheaves till the sun goes down, and to sing and
write hymns to His praise.
THE END.
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